Sunday, February 28, 2010

like a b0$$.

current mood: appreciative.
current song: bobby tinsley - sunrise to sunset.

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my sister came down to pick up mail & my mom said she'll treat us out to eat at a veggie place since my sister gave up meat for lent. we went to Andy Nguyen. pretty bomb stuff. i lalalove tofu. but my parents are embarrassing and picky as ever. won't stop complaining like a buncha kids. seriously, why are you criticizing it if you're eating it still? don't like it, don't eat it. simple as that. & my sister and i were getting irritated. so, we just sat there and waited for them to finish eating. they're done, we left, & had to get pizza for my brother because he is a cave man who doesn't like to go out. it took forever. therefore, we killed time by taking pictures. :)
i love my sister. <3 i realized how empty my life is if i didn't have her. she's the only one in the family that understands me. the rest, are just, poopy. not finna get invited to my homie house, at all. >:) haha.






Saturday, February 27, 2010

perfectly lonely.

"Nothing to do, no one to be. 
Is it really hard to see why I’m Perfectly Lonely. 
‘Cause I don’t belong to anyone and nobody belongs to me. 
And this is not to say there never comes a day,
I’ll take my chances and start again. 
And when I look behind on all my younger times, 
I’ll thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong."

• John Mayer - Perfectly Lonely

darn.

current mood: hungoveeer.
current song: tyga ft. lil wayne - lay you down.

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i hung out with phi and myles.
i met phi's genius friends.
Vi, Lisa, ..... other... guys....
we went to this, burger place.
they like to have "picture time."
myles covered me in the first shot.
but i got his back literally, so its okay.
fridays = no meat.
so i just smooched off fries.
Vi asked me, "do you want some of my curly fries?"
"no, i like my fries straight." i replied.
planning to go to MU in davis.
fail, too late.
so, they had plans for beerpong.
we never even got to play it.
just took shots shots shots.
then, they tried gettin me fudged.
i am semi fudged.
my head huuuurts, now.
& so do all of theirs. haha.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

baby, pull yo pants upp .



kyle hanagami, ellen kim,  & brandon dumlao are killinnn' it. :)
i wish i can learn this. ): i miss choreography.
my free-style, is stuuuck, gotta learn more. haha.

it's okay now.

current mood: lazy.
current song: the dream - love king.

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a few hours ago. i was hecka exhausted.
but, after a trip to the potty, i am quite awakened.
amazing, how things work out, right? haha.
so, yeah...
i feel way better. :)
i think the other emptiness day was just because mondays + tam = heck naw.
yaaaay, T.G.T.I.F. = thank god tomorrow is friday.
i need a break. i've been oober brain dead this week.
happy, i actually was ON time to ALL my classes, the whole week, UNTIL freakin' today!
i overslept on FIRST period again. ugh, i didn't mean to. i'm horrible. ); good thing we had a sub.
& like, 2nd period was chill, i was chattin' wid the teacher about funny incidences in our lives.
um, 3rd period was boring. i just daydreamed about random stuff. math teacher talks way tooo muchhh.
but then, the freakin' V.P. called me up to the office. i thought i was going to be called out for my absences. so, i was hella in a pissy mood when i heard. because, i hate his face. period. however, that wasn't the case! it was the lady V.P., not the dickhead; just calling me to get my phone cos i forgot it in the bathroom. :) i really need to be more careful with my phone foreals, i keep losing it every once in awhile. especially in bathrooooms. ):< thank goodness though. i was hella relieved after that. got my phone back & no trouble. yeeee`. <3
fourth period; ENGLISH, was okay. i stumbled on a presentation thingy. i swear, i have speech problems. my vocab sounds hella tweeked. i can't even pronounce like the simplest words. but i talk fine with other people. fudgeee. i should start making up speeches and recite them with my stuffed animals for improvement like i see on television sitcoms....

?!?!?!???
nah... lol.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

lets get some shoes.

current mood: eyess hurt . )x
current song: new boyz - so dope.

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ugh, customs look too clean. why don't they sell? ):

milk&cereal.

current mood: munch munch.
current song: rusoul - i like you, i like you, i like youu baby.

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um yeah, screw breakfast.
i really enjoy eating it in the evenings. <3
although, i really am not a fan of milk at all; too much of it makes me feel nauseated.
the only thing i'd have milk with is cereal.. & maybe some dessert like stuff.
but you'll never see me, chug down milk by itself.
if you can do that, then awesome, you're amazing for that. :)
& your bones are probably like steel, with that overdosed amount of calcium.
i don't wanna mess with you, milk chuggers. oh geeez.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

facts: dreaming.

1. You forget 90% of your dreams. Within 5 minutes of waking, half of your dream is forgotten. Within 10, 90% is gone.

2. Blind people also dream. People who became blind after birth can see images in their dreams. People who are born blind do not see any images, but have dreams equally vivid involving their other senses of sound, smell, touch and emotion.

3. Everybody dreams. Every human being dreams (except in cases of extreme psychological disorder). If you think, you are not dreaming, you just forget your dreams.

4. In our dreams, we only see faces that we already know. Our mind is not inventing faces – in our dreams we see real faces of real people that we have seen during our life but may not know or remember. We have all seen hundreds of thousands of faces throughout our lives, so we have an endless supply of characters for our brain to utilize during our dreams.

5. Not everybody dreams in color. A full 12% of sighted people dream exclusively in black and white. The remaining number dream in full color. Studies from 1915 through to the 1950s maintained that the majority of dreams were in black and white, but these results began to change in the 1960s. Today, only 4.4% of the dreams of under-25 year-olds are in black and white. Recent research has suggested that those changing results may be linked to the switch from black-and-white film and TV to color media.

6. Dreams are symbolic. If you dream about some particular subject it is not often that the dream is about that. Dreams speak in a deeply symbolic language. Whatever symbol your dream picks on it is most unlikely to be a symbol for itself.

7. Emotions; The most common emotion experienced in dreams is anxiety. Negative emotions are more common than positive ones.

8. You can have four to seven dreams in one night. On average, you can dream anywhere from one or two hours every night.

9. Animals dream too. Studies have been done on many different animals, and they all show the same brain waves during dreaming sleep as humans. Watch a dog sleeping sometime. The paws move like they are running and they make yipping sounds as if they are chasing something in a dream.

10. Body Paralysis.

Rapid eye movement (REM) sleep is a normal stage of sleep characterized by rapid movements of the eyes. REM sleep in adult humans typically occupies 20-25% of total sleep, about 90-120 minutes of a night’s sleep.
During REM sleep the body is paralyzed by a mechanism in the brain in order to prevent the movements which occur in the dream from causing the physical body to move. However, it is possible for this mechanism to be triggered before, during, or after normal sleep while the brain awakens.

11. Dream Incorporation. Our mind interprets the external stimuli that our senses are bombarded with when we are asleep and make them a part of our dreams. This means that sometimes, in our dreams, we hear a sound from reality and incorporate it in a way. For example you may be dreaming that you are in a concert, while your brother is playing a guitar during your sleep.

12. Men and women dream differently. Men tend to dream more about other men. Around 70% of the characters in a man’s dream are other men. On the other hand, a woman’s dream contains almost an equal number of men and women. Aside from that, men generally have more aggressive emotions in their dreams than the female lot.

13. Precognitive Dreams. Results of several surveys across large population sets indicate that between 18% and 38% of people have experienced at least one precognitive dream and 70% have experienced déjà vu. The percentage of persons that believe precognitive dreaming is possible is even higher, ranging from 63% to 98%.

14. If you are snoring, then you cannot be dreaming.

15. You can experience an orgasm in your dreams. You can not only have s e x as pleasurable as in your real life while dreaming, but also experience an o r g a s m as strong as a real one, without any wet results. The sensations felt while lucid dreaming (touch, pleasure and etc..) can be as pleasurable and strong (or I believe even stronger) as the sensations experienced in the real world.

growing up.

current mood: alright.
current song: gabe bondoc - my plan.

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When you grow up your best friends become your worst enemies. Lollipops turn into cigarettes, the innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Cellphones are used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Underwear turns into thongs. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet not a condom? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? When you thought babies were left on your doorstep? When dad’s shoulders were the highest place on Earth and mom was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings, and race issues were about who ran the fastest? War was only a card game, the only drug you knew was cough medicine, and wearing a skirt didn’t make you a whore? The only thing that could hurt you was skinned knees and goodbye only meant until tomorrow? The only drama you knew of was Romeo and Juliet? The only thing you could cheat in was a game, and players were for sports not relationships? The only way we could change was with our clothes and not ourselves. Yet, we absolutely could not wait to grow up. And now growing up is our worst fear.

Monday, February 22, 2010

out of place.

current mood: blah.
current song: passion - well done.

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hmm, somethings wrong with me. i just feel, really empty lately. like, somethings missing in my life. i just can't really put my finger on it. like i'm happy with life, nothings really wrong with it. familys chillish, friends are the best as ever, & no drama/issues whatsoever. i just find myself in moments where i cannot focus on anything anymore. i'm just staring off into space, especially today. i was off on life. & didn't know what i was saying or doing. & last week, someone commented on how quiet i got. its sad hearing that because, i'm usually a firecracker all the time. like pew pew pew. haha. but i guess. i'm just really tired of school & the same routine that i lost myself. i like the unpredictable & unexplainable; that's why outside of school, i feel like ME again. oh darn you, stupid school. sucks my energy for 6 hours. ): one and a half more years to goooo. < / 3

Sunday, February 21, 2010

formspring.

current mood: bored.
current song: zion i - antenna.

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so i made one, because, i am really bored.

where do these questions come from though?
i got the weiiiiiiiiirdest stuff. HAHA.

http://www.formspring.me/tammysaaaur

now, its YOUR turn to ask me a question. ;)

a walk to remember.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Saturday, February 20, 2010

temptation.

current mood: tempted.
current song: FELT - dirty girl.

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OMGOSH. its girl scout season! i want their cooooooookies, but i gave up sweets. x_x hopefully. i'll just buy a box.. and save it until... a week after easter like i did last year. cos i am a cookie monster. :) & girl scout cookies are bomb shiggity.


goodnesss thoo, i can't believe how boring my computer is without myspace/facebook. i have no life. haha
i was looking forward to YFC camp but then it got moved to April. ):
then, i had other plans for FFA & make my chicken coop to raise chickens. but, that didn't work out either. it started at 8 and i didn't wake up until it FINALLY ended, which was 12. i am horrible.
my plans are all gone now, but lets make a plan. <3

Friday, February 19, 2010

FAIL.

current mood: examinate.
current song: rihanna - rude boy.

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only 2 days of lent & i already messed up. ):

i cussed about... 7 times the first day. it's a long story. but it started off when a girl offered me a pringle & i took a bite. then, afterwards, i realized that it was a CHIP, which i gave up too. so i said, "oh 'poop!' i ate a chip.... wait... 'fudge' i said 'poop!'" I AM A FAIL. lol.
then, i ate a piece of chocolate, afterwards i realized that i gave up sweets also. :/
i guess its alright though, because if i screw up a day, i add on another day of lent after Easter... but i think ima owe god a week of make-up because, i feel bad. ;(

i am sucking in school. i keep oversleeping because i can't sleep early for some reason. so, i skipped first period the wholeeeeeee week, except for tuesday. omgosh. fudge my life. hopefully, next week, i'd be a better turnout. resist temptation & not ignore my alarm in the morning. ;x

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

40 days.

current moood: anxious.
cuurent song: nas - doo rags.

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today is Ash Wednesday! i went to church with my friend Myles, & gosh, was it crowded! we went to a mass that's full of mexicans. but i guess it was interesting. everyone was pushing through the church to get their ashes. i was getting claustrophobic in there though. x_x

BUT FOR LENT, i am giving up...

myspace/facebook
cussing ):
television
red meat
chips
softdrinks
sweets

MAYBE... i'll TRY,
procrastinating
texting in class

lots of stuff, right here. but god's worth it. <3
wish me luck that i can pull through until Easter... :)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

lost&found.

current mood: confused/tired.
current song: drake ft. kevin cossum - i get paper.

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has there ever been a moment where you were trying to look for something that was infront of you the whole time or you were holding it? that didn't happened to me. but don't you hate the feeling of just suddenly losing something when you JUST had it, & once you found it, you have this great feeling of relief. however, you feel stupid for not looking at that ONE certain place sooner so you don't have to go through the frustration of looking from place to place only to not find what's needed to be found. yeah, thats how i feel right now. i just found my hat that i've been looking for the whole day. my mom had it. ): & it was bugging the hell out of me. i am still bugged, since i still can't find my purple glasses, & this cute hair clip. hopefully it's in here somewhere.... im too tired to jumble my whole room again. -_-

happy belated valentines day, by the way! er fuck that, happy chinese new years! ;D i got 20 dollars from my parents.. but im kinda disappointed that my friend who betted on the superbowl game with me backed out.. but its okay.. 50 dollars is unnecessary for a bet. lucky, im such a nice person. :/
but for today, i just went out to eat at home town buffet with my family & my mom made a stereotypical comment... she looked around & she was like, "whoah, so many mexicans. but why are they eating all that for? shouldn't they be eating tacos er something." lmao. really? why aren't WE eating chaomeng and rice then? ;p

oh these guys...

current mood: sleepy.
current song: lil wayne, gudda gudda, nicki minaj, drake, tyga, jae millz & lloyd - bed rock.

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Saturday (2.13.10),
i gave phi his stars. & then picked up myles to go to Universal Rhythm's Mainstage. it was really good. i loved P.R.E.S.S. PLAY's performance. & the lyrical pieces. :D but it was kinda hard paying attention when i hear some inapropiate comments being made. "ooooh man, she's taking it off." they're so silly. hahaha. then afterwards, we went to a kickback. :)

phi: do you want another drink?
tam: uhh....
phi: alright, i'll getchu one.
tam: what? i didn't even answer.
myles: shuttup tam, you know we tryna getchu FUCKED up.

LATER...

myles: man, i feel so fucked up you guys.
tam: aw, it's okay. its really funny how you guys try to get me fucked up when it always backfires. but it's all good though, you guys will get there someday...
myles: yeah, someday, gonna get you fucked up.
phi: yeah, HELLA fucked up.





seeee, HELLLLLLLLA buff. even when he's 'fucked up.' ;)

Friday, February 12, 2010

"im black."

tyler 11:09 pm
(11:09:13 PM):     im black

f0kkshietitstam 11:09 pm

(11:09:27 PM):     YOU ARE

(11:09:28 PM):     HAHAHA

(11:09:29 PM):     ?

(11:09:34 PM):     found out in the shower? ;)

(11:09:35 PM):     LOL

tyler 11:09 pm
(11:09:41 PM):     ewww wtf

(11:09:43 PM):     hahaha

f0kkshietitstam 11:09 pm
(11:09:54 PM):     well you said you're black

(11:09:57 PM):     i never knew

(11:09:59 PM):     if you knew

(11:10:00 PM):     then..

(11:10:01 PM):     lol

(11:10:08 PM):     man i am fooled

(11:10:09 PM):     ):

tyler 11:10 pm
(11:10:09 PM):     i meant im back

are you foreal,

current mood: blank.
current song: miguel jontel - lets just be.

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generally, i really i don't lke it when people become friends with people for the wrong reasons. it gets on my nerves how certain people just talk to someone only to ask favors but no conversation? how are you going to expect us to do things for you when we barely have that much of a connection. like c'mon now. every once in awhile it's OKAY, but don't take advantage of someone, especially if they're nice. because, we can be bitches. i know, i can be a bitch at times. >:) k, thanks.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

ABDC; SEASON 5.

current mood: inspired!
current song: black eyed peas - showdown.

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i don't watch much T.V., but this show is a HUGE inspiration to me. i enjoy watching each of the crews & seeing all the different types of styles. this season has quite the variety, i love it though. waaay better than last season... which i wasn't that much excited about. i was kinda bitter towards it since i thought they picked unfairly. i seen so many auditions for last season that would've blown the rest of the chosen crews out of the water! like wtf, they turned down The Lost Kids & Essence, really? fuck that. they would've won if they got on for Season 4, no lie!
but for this season, i favor the West Coast, of course! i always do. but, it's not cos, i'm reppin' my own coast. it's just kinda obvious they have the best technique out of the rest of the coasts. not to mention, their consistent energy passes on to the crowd.
i'm so happy that all the crews i wanted on there got chosen. :D
West: Poreotics, Hype5O, Heavy Impact.
East: Static Noyze, Bluprint Cru
South: Swagger Crew, Jungle Boogie
my favs; GOOD LUCK! :)

however, out of all of them, my most favorable crew would be Poreotics! hands down. they're so adorable. <3 & i loveeeee their unique characteristic style. i've been following them on youtube forever. LOL. yes, stalker stats. ;) but they're good, okay. they reigned championship for World of Dance; San Mateo in 2009. & other various dance events! too many to name. but they are AMAZING. i wish i could've gone that day. but blah... things happen. :/

POREOTICS: W.O.D. 2009 (San Mateo)

i miss it all.

current mood: distractable.
current song: mike posner ft. the brain trust - cooler than me.

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"Build blanket forts, skip from room to room, paint yourself with dandelions, he loves me, he loves me not, catch lightning bugs, play hide-n-seek, freeze tag, climb a tree, make Jacob’s Ladder or Cat’s Cradle, draw on the sidewalk with chalk, double-dutch, play clapping & jump rope games, make water balloons your ultimate weapon, cross your fingers behind your back, pinky swear, blow bubbles in your milk, make a card house, double-dog dare someone, finger paint, make a silly face at a stranger, try a cartwheel, race someone, make a cootie catcher, camp out in your backyard, walk barefoot in the grass, go to the drive-ins, hula-hoop, set up a lemonade stand, play twister, hopscotch, buy penny candy, play pinball, ride go-carts, ring around the rosie, make a club house, catch crayfish, sing into your hairbrush, dunk your cookies, blow the wrapper off a straw, giggle a lot for no reason at all."

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

a crazy kind of love.

current mood: eccentric.
current song: marques houston - always & forever.

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how cutesy. <3 i just saw a kodak moment of my parents on my way to the bathroom. my dad just came home from work, and i spotted him tip toeing to my moms room so he can humorously scare her. hearing his footsteps, she turned around, got startled but laughed it off. then hugged him from behind. :) i sometimes don't understand them because they tend to argue easily... especially with my mom's crazy thoughts of him cheating & her bad attitude when she doesn't have money from him. but that moment, i can see that they really love eachother. it's a really crazy & complex kind of love. but love comes in all different forms. i wish to have that someday, without the arguing and accusations, of coursee. x) i hate unreasonable conflicts.

today, the weather was quite gorgeous. it brought me into a slender moment of happiness. i was welcomed by the light & cool breeze, with the clouds and sunshine peeking through the them. i wish it was like this everyday...

my camera phone is not that great... but doesn't that cloud look like a heart? :)
i don't mean to brag. but i am one pro cloud picture taker, believe me. i catch all kinds of shapes! haha. i find that to be quite the accomplishment, if you ask me. i love to enjoy the simple things, especially admiring what the world has with all its natural wonders and the beauty of the different types of landscapes. clouds are joy for me. just seeing one slowly passing by, puts the slightest smile on my face. & sets me in a most peaceful mindset with a pondering thought to what it feels like if i were a cloud. just to be free, nothing to worry about. & following where ever the wind presses me forward to... i wish i can be a cloud sometimes.

can i go back to sleep?

current mood: i don't wanna go to school.
current song: Cali Kidd ft. Dj Hulk, M.Mouse, & PhizzleForshizzle - trust me. :)

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oh what the fuck, i just choked on my spit. >;(
omgosh tho! i actually got my ass up in time today! :D hoooraaay. i am so proud of myself. :') i woke up at 7 because my mommy wanted me to dial Vietnam for her... but good thing she did. or i'd think i'll be late again. i woke up late yesterday... so i had to skip first period. but better late than never, right? i was planning to wake up at 5 but then... it was really cold that hour... so i just went back to sleep. x_x thank god, we receive our late start schedule today. lame tho, its not raining. ): i like walking around campus in the rain... if i have my umbrella that is. but blah, school's aboutta start, gotta bounce bounce like R. Kelly. ;p

Monday, February 8, 2010

i'll forget about you.



Nina - Someday.

Someday, you're gonna realize
One day, you'll see this through my eyes
By then, i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Cuz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down, and I'm not doing well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Cuz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

why can't i?

current mood: nostalgic.
current song: chrisette michele - epiphany.

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dear you,

as each day passes by; the hurt slowly began fading, & it was easier to just let go. at least, i thought it was. but of all the guys that i've encountered so far. i found myself looking for you. & i never want to forget what we were like that summer. i had a dream about you. i still question myself this so many times. how... i don't know why... out of all the assholes in the world, you're one of the few that i fell for. & after all the shit you've put me through, i can still miss you. but you're with her. you're happy now. that's all i can ever ask for, right. :)

yours truly,
<3

Sunday, February 7, 2010

44th SUPERBOWL.

HELL YEAH, THATS RIGHT.
SAINTS WONNNNN !
thank gooooodness! :)

GO SAINTS!

current mood: competitive.
current song: big bang - number 1.

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dear new orleans; saints,

i really hope that you guys win the 2010 superbowl so i can get some moola. it's almost chinese new years for me, and it's really not good to be broke during that time of year. don't let the colts pass your defense, pleaaaaaaaaaase! ):< beast it out! take home that trophy! :)
thank you sooo much if you dooo,
god bless new orleaaaaaaaans! <3

Saturday, February 6, 2010

shake n' bake.

current mood: silly.
current song: drake - sooner than later.

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friday; i didn't go see a movie, or go to cloud 9 dance party. i just went to P.I.C. meeting/practice & then went home. i thought i was going to be doing nothing. but yes! my "twin" kayla came over. & we call eachother twin because we have like too many things in common & weird incidents that happen to us on the same time! hella crazy. but i freakin' missed her! i don't get to see her often cos she lives alla the way in natomas. ): she was supposed to be going to the cloud 9 dance event too.. but she didn't feel like it so i invited her over to my house since i live only a few minutes away from Capitol Roots dance studio & we just chilled. it was pretty fun. i opened her to her first vietnamese sandwich. then we watched peter chao on youtube; such the funny chinese man! lol. she introduced me to this online social thingy called "meez." there are hella weird ass people on there. not many asians, sadly. "TOO MANY BRACK PEOPLE." lmao. but its hilarious seeing how stupid everyone is on there. finally, to end the day. we baked cupcakes at 11 o' clock at night. such fatties. haha. i love my twin kayla. :)

Friday, February 5, 2010

git me somes.

i have a random cravings! i crave something every few days or sooo...
but its sad... because i never get what i crave. ):
& when i DO get it, i don't crave for it anymore. 
yeah, i think im.. preg-- less... haha.
 but i really want gummy bears and strawberry pocky right now. 
& jamba... i crave that all the time. :) yumm.


Thursday, February 4, 2010

which one?

current mood: indecisive.
current song: trey songz - jupiter love.

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weather is super whaaaack ! it was sunny yesterday sorta.. now its crazy rainy. ;p thank goodness it was when i got home because i don't got my umbrella ella ella with me.
whoahhs! so many things to do so faaar and look forward to. :D
dear john is coming out tomorrow; looooved the boook! nicholas sparks is a bombass author. really sad & surprising tho. ;x  my friend invited me to go watch it with her, but i'm not sure if i can because i have practice for P.I.C.'s 7th annual luwow afterschool  tomorrow. doing hula/tahitian. :)
my parents are going to be goone too; going to this Vietnamese concert/baquet type of stuff... so i can party... er i wish i can. ): & but oh goosh, theres also this dance party i got invited to. it's at a studio i used to go to; Capitol Roots. but ehh, i want to go. then i don't. because i'm not in touch with the people there anymore. plus, i think it might be kind of awkward. i want to bring some friends. bummer; cos they're not the type to dance around strangers. so blah. not suuure, maybe? i dunno.
then, my teacher invited me to go to san francisco for a field trip to just chill for asian club. i haven't been there in forever. & then there's japan club for the cherry blossom festival in japan town in SF also, coming upp in the spring, i think.
CFC-Y DELTA (YFC; Youth For Christ) camp is coming up too; FEB [20-22]. i'm finally going to join after hella people tried to persuade me over a yeaaar. i can't wait. gotta spend new years money on it thoo. but i think it'll be worth it. meet new people, & connect more with god. <3
lotsa events! i'm sure of what i want to do.. but so much at the same time!
i suck at making choices... or i take too long! like, i take years to pick an icecream flavor at the supermarket. ): but cross my fingers & hope that i make the right ones. (;<

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

slow motion.

current mood: calm.
current song: chris brown - crawl.

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it's not you guys, its me. i have recently loved & i've lost. i'm not ready or looking forward into something new at the moment. because, it is unfair to me, and unfair to you guys if i jump into another relationship & at the back of my mind, i know my heart is still somewhere else. i admit, i am not completely over my last relationship & if i move on, i want to make sure that i am capable of giving my all, no second thoughts. i don't want to burden anyone with a regret and i don't want to hurt anyone. therefore, i am not interested in any special someones. i'm really done for now. to be quite honest, i don't understand why some guys are fond of me. i'm really not that great at all. lately, i have encountered a few boys & some are brought back to me. & i have to tell you, that they make things really awkward for me and i admit, i push them away. they're all nice to know at first, but then their straightforward attitude tends to get on my nerves from time to time. please, be my friend first. friendship is awesome. always is a good thing to have. i'm a really good friend, & i never mind inviting more people into my life. i can be your best friend. i can be here whenever you need someone to talk to. & i'll try to make you smile when you're not near the peak of happiness. but don't push me to like you because that's not how i roll. if you're looking for more i suggest looking somewhere else because you cannot find it in me. or at least, give me time to know you. let me love you in slow motion. let me be your best friend. & i promise if there's any potential, i'll make it worthwhile. & if not, please accept the friendship i have to offer. just give me time.




P.S. if anyone thinks this is directed towards anyone. it's not. 
it's just ANY guy in general! :)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

ever heard.

"& i realize that your laugh is,
the best sound 
i have ever heard."


pimple.

current mood: uncomfortable.
current song: taylor swift - jump then fall.

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February;
Valentines Day ... lame.
Chinese/Vietnamese New Years ... ohyes, money(:
3 day weekends 2 weeks in a row ... awesome.
i don't get whats a point of a cough? is it necessary? i mean it hurts. where does it come from?!
or a pimple?! like wtf, it is necessary for people to have one. i just got my first one in years & it's been bothering the heck out of me. its a colored pink... dot? why do we need dots for! asjdklsad; disgusting!
life is plain. schools really boring. i always wish there was a pillow to lay on. i say i hate animation everyday. but DenisLAV is helping me do my stuff. :) so i better pass. my math teacher talks way too much; AHH, test tomorrow! english is a tree killer. i am pooped.
late wednesday tomorrow, so more sleep. <3
but, food faire? NO JAMBA JUICE. ): im sad.
homework ... is ugly.
i finished my boba milk tea w/ mini boba, YUMMM;
THANK YOU TOULEE HERRRGH , you coooo .
sorry for getting you lost. haha.
blahblahblahblah. :)

Monday, February 1, 2010

only one.

"here i go, 
so dishonestly,
leave a note,
for you, my only one.
& i know, 
you can see right through me.
so let me go,
& you will find someone."
- yellow card.

icky.

current mood: in pain.
current song: drake - a little bit.

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i don't feel good.

coughing hurts.
runny noses are annoying.
hot foreheads, aren't cool.
medicine is nasty.

god, please help me get better soon.
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