slow motion.

current mood: calm.
current song: chris brown - crawl.

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it's not you guys, its me. i have recently loved & i've lost. i'm not ready or looking forward into something new at the moment. because, it is unfair to me, and unfair to you guys if i jump into another relationship & at the back of my mind, i know my heart is still somewhere else. i admit, i am not completely over my last relationship & if i move on, i want to make sure that i am capable of giving my all, no second thoughts. i don't want to burden anyone with a regret and i don't want to hurt anyone. therefore, i am not interested in any special someones. i'm really done for now. to be quite honest, i don't understand why some guys are fond of me. i'm really not that great at all. lately, i have encountered a few boys & some are brought back to me. & i have to tell you, that they make things really awkward for me and i admit, i push them away. they're all nice to know at first, but then their straightforward attitude tends to get on my nerves from time to time. please, be my friend first. friendship is awesome. always is a good thing to have. i'm a really good friend, & i never mind inviting more people into my life. i can be your best friend. i can be here whenever you need someone to talk to. & i'll try to make you smile when you're not near the peak of happiness. but don't push me to like you because that's not how i roll. if you're looking for more i suggest looking somewhere else because you cannot find it in me. or at least, give me time to know you. let me love you in slow motion. let me be your best friend. & i promise if there's any potential, i'll make it worthwhile. & if not, please accept the friendship i have to offer. just give me time.




P.S. if anyone thinks this is directed towards anyone. it's not. 
it's just ANY guy in general! :)