yuckk.

current mood: drained.
current song: owl city - cave in.

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oh geeezers, i am officially sick again. i wish i had a dollar for every tissue that i've blown into today...then i would have enough for... a few cups of jamba. MmmMm. TOO BAD, i don't. ;( all i have is my nyquil. i slept so much today because of it. didn't wake up until like 5 or 6 P.M. i guess its a good thing tho. i'm catchin' up on all my Z's that i've been missin' out all week.
hm, overall... this week went by faster than last week, but it was still kinda long somewhat. i couldn't take my eyes off the clock. maybe thats why. ;p but i had a fun friday even tho that's when i got sick again. always be choosing the badass times too. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KELLYLE thooo! i love heeeeeer. FINALLY, i saw my franklin kiddies. i missed them. THANK YOU KENRYVEELOLOVAY for the ride there&back! you are awesome, man. even tho we got lost. haha. but, i got attacked once i got out of the car. feelin' the loooove. the party was kinda over when i came tho. but i was able to bring it back up just a lil biiit. horny ass kids foreals; always wanna be grinding. & freakin kelly. "i think i'm horny you guys. i can't stop thinking about sex!" LOL. hella lapdances too; although.. i did most of the work. -_- but its okay. :) be breakin hella niggas off! (; haha. then i made new buddies. sad, that this will probably be one of the rarest times that i see them. ): hopefully, i can get my permit soon, & license in by summer so we can hang out more often. but my parents are hella lagging on my driving school tuition. grr.

please, don't.

current mood: blustery.

current song: ludacris ft. shawnna - how low.

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i wish it was friday today instead of thursday. going by tooo sloooow. school had a minimum day today. although, it felt like it lasted forever, like a normal day. it was sucky. i was mean today too. i'm sorry, people. excuse my behavior. ): but gaaah, i feel crappy. my throats raspy. my heads hot. oh god, please don't let me get sick again. >< i just got better like.. the last week of december. & its only january.. and its still not even over yet. why does my body hate me. jdksajdksa; -_- 

flowers.

so like i said before, i'm selling flowers in fundraising for FFA.
pleaaaaaase, contact, if you want any. :)
the varieties;
A) 15 Glamini Gladious Mix $10.00
B) 4 Tango Lillies Mix $10.00
C) 4 Hostas Mix $10.00
D) 4 Decorative Dahlias Mix $10.00
E) 3 Pink & White Phlox Mix $10.00
F) 8 Lily of the Valley $10.00
G) 20 Single Freesias Mix
H) 40 Pink Fairy Lillies
I) 5 Oriental Lilies Mix $10.00
J) 4 Colorful Daylilies Mix $10.00
K) 3 Summer Daffodil 'Erlicheer' $10.00
L) 3 Coneflowers Mixed $10.00
O) 1 Herb Garden $20.00
P) 1 Strawberry Garden $20.00
** ordered & arrived the same day. :)

my friend phi requested that i post pictures, so here....

love ____,

current mood: tired ...
current song: tynisha keli - my first love.

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"Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt."

the lingo.

"dang boy,

you so hoowt & shoowt."

AHAHA.

fasho. besta know i'm cooool, CHRISMAN! :)

pants on thaa ground.

awww daaaaaaaaang. don't you wish your grandpa was this "hip?!" HAHAHA.
i sureee doooooooo. too coool, right here. ;p

awkward scissors.

current mood: enlightened.
current song: glee - smile.

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aw gosh darn, it looks like i ruined my blog streak. ): oh welllls, start again. lol.
so last week; not much happened. it was pretty boring & looong. i've been a slacker like usual; starting my homework suuuuuper late. but i joined FFA (Future Farmers Of America) because my ag teacher was gonna give me extra credit & they're giving fooooooood at the first meeeeting. sooo, that was the only reason i went because ima fatty. :) too bad.. all they had was some icky jello, that smelled like cleaning products. i wanted cookies. ): eh, it wasn't that crackin.. but its okay. my bestfriends in it too. so i think it'll be more fun later on. :) & i am also fundraising for it by selling flower bulbs. got those pretty colorrrrs; 10 dollaas. so tell your grandpannies, moms, dads, uncles, aunts, whatever. sure some might like planting, right? k thanks! <3
anyways, this week just started. & usually my mondays are horrible but not this one. it was pretty smoooth. x) i survived on an hour of sleeeep. crazy riiight? i stayed up all night talking on aim & procrasinating on school work; MYLES is hella BUFF thooo, on the reaaaaaaaaals. i have no idea what fat he be talking about. all i ever see is mines. its everywhere. covers the air too! so you know.. if you get breathing problems. just know, its my fatass' fault. )': yes, hella baad huhh.
but hmmm, i went to school. mommy sucked at driving. hella traffic. gaygaygay. i was SUPPOSED to be tardy.. but i snuck in like a pro while the teacher turned his back. pwahaha. (:< then... went to other classes... just the usual. except animation. i made a new friend today. his name is denis.. but real name is denisLAV. thats super awesome. i wish i had LAV in at the end of my name. tammyLAV, tamLAV. hella cooools. anywhooo, he's european, from bulgaria if i recall... he taught me how to say "hello," but i totally forgot. ): he can also speak russian too. it was all good. except he was awkwardly tryna get at me. asked for my digits and everything. i was like.. this duude foreal? hella weeak tho! "what nationality are you?" "i'm asian.. guess what it is." "uhhhh i don't know many... but umm...korean... chinese... japanese... uh... i dunno... pretty?!" "wooow, im vietnamese, but nice effort." "so uhh whats your number... can i holler at you tonight?" reaaaalllyy? freakin' loooooser... omgosh. hahaha! but his birthday is 10 days before mine, same yeaaar too.. and he's a sophomore; got held back one grade cos his mom told him to when he just moved here due to english language skills and what not. & i'm just writing this all down, cos i am one good listener, no lieee. (;
not sooo bad of a monday. had some goodass laughs today. :) "OH JAYSEUS, AWKWARD SCISSORS?!" my abs hurt everytime i laugh thooo. hopefully because of the workout. yeah. im WORKING out my abs. gotta winn that bet. stayin beastmode on those resolutions & all. its onnn. ;D

chick flicks.

current mood: restless.
current song: bobby tinsley - can we get back.

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i don't know why, but im in the mood to rent every lovey dovey movie thats in the video store. cozy up in blankets in the coldest of weather this weekend; & laugh, smile, cry. aw... i am such a loser. lol.

movies (released) ;

The Notebook<3
500 Days of Summer
Time Traveler's Wife 
P.S. I Love You
Wall-E
Titanic
Ghost Town
Before Sunset
Knocked Up
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Punch-Drunk Love
Twlight
Twilight: New Moon
Wedding Crashers
50 First Dates
A Walk To Remember
My Sister's Keeper (kinda)
The Wedding Singer
The Ugly Truth
40 Year Old Virgin
Good Luck Chuck


i can't think of anymore... ): but these are my favorite. well, the ones i've watched. & the others.. i have no doubt that i'd like them too. i wanna purchase all of them tho. so far, i only have the notebook. but its my besttt. so i don't mind. suggest me some, please. ;)

to be seen soon...
Dear John,
(out February 5, 2010)

umbrella.

"Weather is a great metaphor for life - sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad, and there's nothing much you can do about it but carry an umbrella."

 ~Pepper Giardino

falling on the rooftops.

current mood: chilly.
current song: chris brown - chase our love.

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thank god, tomorrow is FINALLY friday. this week felt like forever & it was a monday off too. how lame is that. ;o so far, its been raining cats and dogs. the wind went bizzeerk also. then again... i think the whole weather is just bipolar in general. it rains like crazy... then becomes sunny... then rains like crazy again. i think mother nature is pmsing. that sucks, i just ended mines. haha. didn't need to know that? okay! lets move on. really, it was calmer today though. so, i didn't bring my umbrella since i thought it was just going to be cloudy & then sunny eventually. boy, was i wrong, there was no sunshine. it was dark clouds and constant rain the whole day. i missed my umbrella. ):  it was perfect weather too. i didn't have to worry about it flipping inside out since its not windy. aw well! cross my fingers, hope that god will spill some water tomorrow. i want more umbrella ella ella ey ey ey time. :) plus it's good! better supply of H2O for earth & people. we can potty all we want. hooray. :D

shoes.

GUY: hey... let me tie your shoes. ;)
GIRL: umm... why? they're already tied...
GUY: well, let me tie them again!
GIRL: weirdo, for why?
GUY: becaaaaaaause... i wanna make sure.
GIRL: make sure? make sure of what?

GUY: i wanna make sure, so that... you won't fall for anyone else. :)


AWWW , I THOUGHT THIS WAS ADORABLE.
teehehe, mmk bye! :)

showeeerr.

current mood: breezy my neezy.
current song: trey songz ft. gucci mane & soulja boy - LOL.
yes, i do looooooooooove fisher price! (-8

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HI,
if you didn't know. i love spending hella years in the shower singing to whatever song that comes in my head. & making up random ass choreography that i tend to forget because i have no real music in my bathroom. i just use my memory and sometimes that's never accurate as i wished it was. i need the base to go boomboompoww, where a chick is jockin' my styleeee & try to copy my swagger but i'm on that next shit now. chyeah... i don't have that convenience. however, it is the best stage in the world. with water and steam effects. when i was little i used to pretend that i had water powers. by just splashing randomly & letting water run down my arm as if i casted water like uh... watery spider man. haha. sad, it wasn't real. ): but anywaaays, it also has a built in microphone... which others like to refer to as the shower head. some people say girls use the shower head for other purposes... like in that scene from 40 year old virgin. but no. not tam. shes hella too cool for that. its whack, fasho. if you do that... then LOLSMILEYFACE. i laugh at you. thats what men are for ladiesss ! make yo' own shower power to the wet jet. ratatata. if you catch my drift. ;) okay, what the fuck?!
awkward turtle....

HMMMmm! in conclusion. i think showers are very exuberant. cos they make ya feel brand newww. x)
mmhmmmmmmmmm.

squirrel !

this made me happy. <3
my MOST favorite pixar everrr! i lalaloveeee this movieeee. it's madd adorable. :)
rawr. i want the DVD now...

money?

current mood: disappointed.
current song: sammie - wake up.

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owwieeeee. ;( i cut my finger while slicing an orange earlier.
it was bleeeeding like crazyyy.
it looked like a strawberry gusher.
i haven't had a cut in a long ass time...
but it didn't really hurt. i dunno. im weird. lol.

ANYWAYS...

over time, i noticed that one of my motivations of becoming a better person is to NEVER be like my parents. i get disappointed looking at them. the love is gone... yet they choose to be together over money. well... just my mom at least. shes a character that i never wish to be like. shes never happy about ANYTHING & also VERY spoiled and immature. making very stupid accusations about everything & getting angry about the stupidest things. as for my dad, he has his moments. but he's still someone i can look up to. he's more understanding than my mom; always talking about all he wishes is that i try hard to succeed in life, and that will make him happy. because he wants to die peacefully knowing that his children are able to take care of themselves. my mom never gave me that encouragement. all she does is calls me stupid for every thing that i do wrong and curses at me. even if i wake her up to take me to school at times she blows up & makes a scene. i don't understand her. or i WISHED that she would understand. shes so hardheaded on everything & always making her seem like the victim. she always has to be right about every fucking thing, and never admits her wrongs. it's apparently not okay for other people, but it's okay for her?! what in the world... it's soo frustrating.
earlier, my dad brought home the paycheck. but there were some deductions & my mom accused him of stealing money away from the check. & they argued. NOW, shes mad at my dad. when its her fault for making such a selfish accusation. YOU have your fucking money. it doesn't matter if he took some out or not. its still enough. like what the hell do you want from him. we have food, a roof under our heads, clothes to wear. a lot of people wished they have this. don't take shit for granted. if you want more money, then YOU go work. because he's the only one working. stop complaining & start being fortunate for what the fuck we have. cos not many people do. shit.
man, i wish that i can say every single word to her and spell it out in her face. but thats the downfall of having a F.O.B. mom who doesn't know crap on english. ): & i know Vietnamese.. but i don't know everything. i can never tell her how i feel. its so retarded.
-_-
sjgkljslda;
whatever. if i get a family one day. imma make sure it's hella cool.
cool hubby, cool kids. like me. yessireee.  :)

staaaaars.

current mood: amused.
current song: usher - oh my gosh.

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YES! i finally found a stool tall enough to hang my glow in the dark stars. (:
its kinda late since i moved in.. like 2 weeks ago.
but better late than neverrr.
i don't have anymore of that sticky puddy stuff... so i used tape.
its folded in the square at the back so its ninja status.
you can't see the tape.
its a shape shifter.
a square one.
OoOooOo... watch out!
my friend phi called me "ghetto" for it.
but its a good alternative, mmkay!
i got my stars up, so its alll graaaavy, baby.
don't hate. >:)
ooooooooooh yeaaauhh .

& time just keeps tickin'.

current mood: complacent.
current song: kanye west - street lights.

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"They say people in your life are like seasons, 

and anything that happens is for a reason."

soo, having a talk with one of my best friends today. we talked about how things used to be when we were freshmans in highschool. everything was SOOO good. TOO good. everyone was cool with eachother. we would use to kickit with everyone like every week! no problems. no drama. just a bunch of good memories being made with a bunch of friendly people.
i can't believe how fast time is going. we're already halfway in our 3rd year of highschool... everythings so split between people... so different. i miss how things used to be. how everybody would flash a smile to the people who walk by. NOW?! its not often, anymore. that friendly line is now broken by distance, problems... i don't even know. its not fair. but life is never fair. so... imma just live with what i've got. fuck it. life's good now. its just not the same. but imma make the best out of all the changes. because they happen for a reason. & imma follow whatever route that life takes me and hope its for the best. but if it ain't... then i'll try to make it the best. life ain't over. i'm young. i have yet alot more to experience. i'm NEVER going to let the past get to me. because like i said before, its called the PAST for a reason.
im so thankful; after all the bullshit that recently happened... i'll still always have my two bestest friends on my side. 3 amigoes for life. ain't nothin' finna stop us. <3

 
LOL, throwbaaaaaack. (:
Katie, Tam, Annie, thatoneguy. haha.

"A friend knows the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails."  ~ Donna Roberts.

"The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had."  ~ idk.

"When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."  ~ Henri Nouwen.

meet my idol.

ELLEN KIM! my INSPIRATION! :D
i freakin loooooooove her. she's such an amazing choreographer. & so is April Rodriquez!
hella killin' the collab! i can't wait to meet them someday and learn from them hopefully. that would be a dreaaaaaaaam. <3
oohh yeahhh. gogogoooo essence/the lost kids/choreo cookies/funkanometry! :)

not again ,

current mood: full.
current song: adele - daydreamer.

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FREAKIN' PHONE!

i went to the verizon store with my sister to get my phone checked out since its tweeekin out & plus to hopefully get back my contacts and maybe my pictures... but the person who helped me last got TRANSFERRED. & they have no idea where the hell he put my phone. grr, freakin black guy! took all my contacts/pictures away. then he gives me a "new" replacement phone with the camera broken. thank god i have insurance... because... im about to receive my 6th LG chocolate 3... oh jollyyyyy . but chyeah... i don't think me and "chocolate" mix.. are there any "yellow" phones?! would a toshiba or samsung last longer on me? cos geeeez, i dunno how many more replacements i gotta go through... lol.

BUT, on the brightside... i finally got my jamba juice that i've been craving for so looooooooooong. orange dream machine. yummmmmm. <3 i love my sissy. :D

YEEEEE` nigggggggggkuhhhhhhhs. :)

dang... i needa haircut... bangs are getting looooooooong. :/

twenty teeeeeeeeen !

mood: hypeddd.
song: jay-z - on to the next one.

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i know, i've been hella late on this. but i've been really lazy to reminisce on everything. my brain hurts... lol. but here goes!

Year 2009;
ohh nine. in the beginning, i thought this was going to be something to look forward to. i had a wonderful holiday break. i ACTUALLY did something. i spent it with someone who i loved. had my first ever new years kiss. it was warm, safe, loving way to start the year. <3 & i hoped it would be like that for the rest of the year... but in reality, that warmth fell cold real quick. there were some positives.. but the negatives would just be too overwhelming. resulting towards... one of the worst years of my life. but on the bright side, i learned a lot, opened myself for new emotions that i've been wondering to experience and somewhat avoid. it was the year that i fell in love, got my heart broken constantly, turned 16, finally became an upperclassmen in highschool, received a new toshiba laptop, got distant from my close friends & lost a few, met new people & true friends that i would want to keep for life, saw a meteor shower, got sick 3 times in a row, fucked up again with my 2nd half of 1st semester, recited a speech for my friends debut, had jamba juice every week, pulled my first "janet jackson," ... etc, it was crazy... but looking back now... it would be probably be one of the best years instead of the worst because it has molded to be one tougher cookie. >:)

i had a bittersweet ending... although break was a bit odd. things didn't feel like what they were supposed to be. it didn't feel like christmas or a new year... at all.. just another regular day. i spent most of my time at home since i was sick. ):< fortunately, i got better just in time for new years! i ended my year with these THESE GUYS that were trying to force me to SING, even tho i CAN'T, its all the radio. haha. ;) "freakin phi and myles." haha. but it was pretty hilarious. we planned to watch fireworks in downtown; old sacramento but it was a FAIL. traffic was crazy. so we gave up & went to a friends house instead... which was pretty funny too. everyone was hella trippin out over an orange civic.. and i never knew "guhhgnstas" were such camera whores. but its all good i guess. hahah. i think laughing is the best cure for everything... and a great way to start off the year. <3
but anywayss, i FINALLY let go of love that wasn't meant to be. & i am happy as ever. :) fuck it. LOVE IS FOR SUCKERS! >;o also, strengthened my bond with my most dearest friends to accomplish that we are going to be there for each other for life. <3 they are every piece to complete my puzzle. friends = awesome blossoms, faaaasho. ;p although winter break was thought to be cold.. it was actually warm with good company and the comfort of promising people. (: REMEMBER, always look upon the side where the grass is much greener. <3 and water .. the dead.. grass? lmao.

now, that i've finally gotten off the rocky roller coaster called 2009 with all its crazy drops, loops, and turns;
a new year has started & i'm not sure what it is about it. but i have a really good vibee, its gonna be a pretty bomb year. i have some goals i wish to accomplish. livin' it up as miss i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t. ;) & everythings just super fresh. its a new start of the semester at school & so far i like all of my teachers... they are really nice and understanding, so that'll motivate me to try harder. i can't stand being taught by a teacher that gives me a bad impression. so yaay, finally cool teachers. x) not to mention, i recently moved into my NEW house last weekend, & omgosh, it was exhausting. but its all graaavy cos.. i have... a bigger room now. pwahahah. & sooooon, i'm finally going to start my last year of highschool once summer vacation ends. its hella insane how fast time just zooms right by. but heck yessss, THIS IS IT! good or bad; i'm sooo mothafckin ready to take this year head on & i hope to keep the good friends as close as i can cos they're my sunshine in the raaaain. (: 2010; bring it on biaatches , imma make this shit MY year. (;< already knowwww .

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS;
- meet new people/friends.
- keep good friends close.
- avoid drama. (NO MORE BITCHASSNESS!)
- be organized.
- get some bomb grades. (ACTUALLY STUDY)
- no more ditching... hehehe...
- work out to get ciara abs. ;)
- re pierce ears, cartilage, bellybutton (lip,nose?)
- get eyes examined... im getting blind. ): (contacts;purple)
- live it up on weekends , but get school shit over with first.
- be motivated.
- make as much time for homiessssss ,
- continue to be a better myself as a person.
- & be there for friends whenever, where ever, 24/7
- make a difference in someone's life.
- no regrets.
- update music.
- improve dance/vocals.
- finally sing for some people.
- get some belated presents for some peeeeps.
- start driving.
- save money.
- JAMBA JUICE! whenever i can; its a must.
- get a job.
- learn how to DJ (senior proj.)
- learn how to swim/box.
- ride a bike again! haha.
- be activeeeeee ,
- get more flexible (get splits downn)
- get a better immune system! ): no more sickness. x_x
- attempt to tan.
- LOL,ROFL,LMAO,LMFAO as much as possible! (best cure for everything.)
- live life to the fullest; be happy as i can be. <3

SPECIAL THANKS;
- Hanh Pham
the one and only who i adore and admire. wise, caring, strong-willed;  my sister.
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- Annie Nguyen
- Katie Pham
- Phi Ho
- Myles Layug

* thanks for always being downn & always managing to find a way to put a smile on my face. i appreciate everything you guys do, foreals. & no matter how long we don't talk, we can go on like nothing ever happened. my definition of what a true friend is. you guys are the best. i love you allll. thank you so much for being there for me with all the ups&downs. <3 whatever happens, i gotchuu guys. likewise, all the time. :)

& EVERYONE ELSE!
every friend i lost.
every new friend i gained.
everyone who has been in my life before...
just everyone. <3

 "hated or loved, good or bad, how far apart or how close we are, i'm most thankful for people who have walked in and out of my life, the new people that have just came in, but most importantly, i am most thankful for the people that never left my side and stuck through with a crazy girl like me. i lalalalove everyone. you all are the reason for who i am and what i've always wanted to be. ♥ thank you. "

tam loves gleeeeee !

OMGOSH. who thought of such a bombass show?!
glee is by far, the best television series i've ever watched... and i'm not over exaggerating! :) i admit, i've been lagging for awhile to finish all the episodes up, but i'm glad i took the time to finish it today. i've never been so emotionally touched and inspired by such a show. it's not full of that bullshit which other basic shows unnecessarily have. also, not as predictable as others, and they have a creative plot with extra twists that make me just want to click to the next episode to see what happens next. i can't wait for the next seasonnnnnn. <3 if you peoples haven't tuned into show yet, then you're missing out! WATCH IT! you won't regret it. :D

but yeah... as you read this... you will discover... i have no life... ):
hekeke, it's all gravy tho. (-8
at least i didn't dream about tetris again. lol.

K-O. :)

mood: victooriouuuuuuus!
song: lil wayne ft. nikki minaj - knock out.

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12:19amPhi
if they had a nerdy smiley
ud see it right now
12:20amTam
8)
lol
oh wait
(8
lol
12:20amPhi
8-]
12:21amTam
(-8 lol.
12:21amPhi
i like
your next status
after the status we made u
lol
12:22amTam
lol
freakin phi and myles?
12:22amPhi
yeah
haha
12:22amTam
cos you're in it
who is the conceited one now
hahaha
phiiii
hoooo
hooo
12:22amPhi
LOL
12:22amTam
haha
12:23amPhi
its cool
no evidence
;]
12:23amTam
haha. psh. about to save this convo rite now then
post it on my blogspot
LOL
12:25amPhi
alright u know what
u win tam