money?

current mood: disappointed.
current song: sammie - wake up.

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owwieeeee. ;( i cut my finger while slicing an orange earlier.
it was bleeeeding like crazyyy.
it looked like a strawberry gusher.
i haven't had a cut in a long ass time...
but it didn't really hurt. i dunno. im weird. lol.

ANYWAYS...

over time, i noticed that one of my motivations of becoming a better person is to NEVER be like my parents. i get disappointed looking at them. the love is gone... yet they choose to be together over money. well... just my mom at least. shes a character that i never wish to be like. shes never happy about ANYTHING & also VERY spoiled and immature. making very stupid accusations about everything & getting angry about the stupidest things. as for my dad, he has his moments. but he's still someone i can look up to. he's more understanding than my mom; always talking about all he wishes is that i try hard to succeed in life, and that will make him happy. because he wants to die peacefully knowing that his children are able to take care of themselves. my mom never gave me that encouragement. all she does is calls me stupid for every thing that i do wrong and curses at me. even if i wake her up to take me to school at times she blows up & makes a scene. i don't understand her. or i WISHED that she would understand. shes so hardheaded on everything & always making her seem like the victim. she always has to be right about every fucking thing, and never admits her wrongs. it's apparently not okay for other people, but it's okay for her?! what in the world... it's soo frustrating.
earlier, my dad brought home the paycheck. but there were some deductions & my mom accused him of stealing money away from the check. & they argued. NOW, shes mad at my dad. when its her fault for making such a selfish accusation. YOU have your fucking money. it doesn't matter if he took some out or not. its still enough. like what the hell do you want from him. we have food, a roof under our heads, clothes to wear. a lot of people wished they have this. don't take shit for granted. if you want more money, then YOU go work. because he's the only one working. stop complaining & start being fortunate for what the fuck we have. cos not many people do. shit.
man, i wish that i can say every single word to her and spell it out in her face. but thats the downfall of having a F.O.B. mom who doesn't know crap on english. ): & i know Vietnamese.. but i don't know everything. i can never tell her how i feel. its so retarded.
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whatever. if i get a family one day. imma make sure it's hella cool.
cool hubby, cool kids. like me. yessireee.  :)