current mood: sympathized.
current song: usher - you got it bad.
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sometimes... i wonder if the weather can read our moods or signal us towards a bad day. it was quite beautiful throughout the whole week. however, today... it was gloomy. the clouds were hovering over the sun from shining through. eventually, i found out that a friend of mine lost their father. it was shocking news to me, since i knew him. i came through for the family to see if they're okay. it was really heartbreaking to see such a melancholy setting. i was fine for awhile, then later on everything just set in & i broke into tears. not only for him, but for everyone.
afterwards, i thought about everyone who i love, who i care about. how will my life be if they were to disappear just before a blink of an eye. life is full of surprises. & we have to live with the realization that every surprise isn't going to turn out to be good ones, or what we wanted it to be. therefore, we must live everyday happily without any regrets & if there are, it's never to late to fix them. & if everything seems like its too late for repair, don't ever give up. there's a lesson learned to every mistake that's made. we always have to give ourselves the opportunity to find another route to start anew,; keeping our heads up in hopes of not repeating the same error. most importantly, we must treasure everyone who are currently in our lives. especially the ones who are capable of giving us a smile when it's most needed. those are the ones to keep & cherish cos we never know when we are going to see them again even if their visibility is frequent. also, to not let any good things go--don't take them for granted once we receive them. really... what are the chances of us finding it again? you really don't know what it's got til its gone. & don't just wait for it to slip away; take risks for those chances of a lifetime.
hidalgo family. my deepest apologies for the lost. it's going to be a tough road. god takes only the best & eduardo was one of them. he was a great supporting husband & a wonderful father. although he is gone physically, he will forever remain in our hearts & be with us spiritually. may he rest in peace within the hands of god. best wishes to the remaining family in hopes that they will be safe & living life happily and successfully with little obstacles in the future.
R.I.P. EDUARDO HIDALGO.
january 4, 1954 - may 31, 2010.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
that's what he said.
well tam, lol sex chromosomes decide what gender we are. girls have XX chromosomes and guys have XY sex chromosomes. you see we all start out as a girl, with one X chromosome. Then as we develop as babies, we either get another X chromosome or a Y chromosome. Since we all started with an X, we get all get nipples ;]
Professaaa said...
Yeah you tell em college boy LOlz
why guys have nipples.
current song: jeff bernat - if you wonder.
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f0kkshietitstam 11:34 pm
(11:34:25 PM): what are you doing tmr
(11:34:29 PM): we should,
(11:34:34 PM): do somethinng.
(11:34:38 PM): alot of things
(11:34:40 PM): before you leave to china
(11:34:41 PM): ):
CHRISTINA 11:35 pm
(11:35:18 PM): haha ill be going for 2 weeks in july
(11:35:24 PM): and we will :)
(11:35:46 PM): we can go rape trees at midnight
(11:35:47 PM): LOL
f0kkshietitstam 11:37 pm
(11:37:00 PM): rape trees.
(11:37:01 PM): LOL
(11:37:04 PM): but splinters
(11:37:10 PM): i don't think thats a good plan
(11:37:11 PM): HAHA
CHRISTINA 11:37 pm
(11:37:57 PM): haha
(11:37:59 PM): yea....
(11:38:06 PM): thats probably why god made dicks
(11:38:07 PM): LOL
f0kkshietitstam 11:38 pm
(11:38:48 PM): HAHA.
(11:38:50 PM): probably.
(11:38:55 PM): but why do guys have nipples
(11:38:58 PM): lol
CHRISTINA 11:39 pm
(11:39:49 PM): uhh...
(11:39:50 PM): huh...
(11:39:51 PM): dang...
(11:39:53 PM): idk
CHRISTINA 11:39 pm
(11:39:59 PM): LOL
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f0kkshietitstam 12:50 am
(12:51:23 AM): oh sounds good. (: so, i have a qustion myles.
(12:51:48 AM): why do guys have nipples?
MYLES 12:53 am
(12:53:52 AM): Hahaha this girl lolzz because its just anatomically correct aha
f0kkshietitstam 12:54 am
(12:54:35 AM): LOL. anatomically. what if its ANATOMICALLY wrong? ):
MYLES 12:55 am
(12:55:06 AM): Thennn that would be someting like no nipples aha
f0kkshietitstam 12:55 am
(12:55:26 AM): oh yeah... you're right. thank you myles. ima post this up on my blog. haha. <3
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f0kkshietitstam 11:34 pm
(11:34:25 PM): what are you doing tmr
(11:34:29 PM): we should,
(11:34:34 PM): do somethinng.
(11:34:38 PM): alot of things
(11:34:40 PM): before you leave to china
(11:34:41 PM): ):
CHRISTINA 11:35 pm
(11:35:18 PM): haha ill be going for 2 weeks in july
(11:35:24 PM): and we will :)
(11:35:46 PM): we can go rape trees at midnight
(11:35:47 PM): LOL
f0kkshietitstam 11:37 pm
(11:37:00 PM): rape trees.
(11:37:01 PM): LOL
(11:37:04 PM): but splinters
(11:37:10 PM): i don't think thats a good plan
(11:37:11 PM): HAHA
CHRISTINA 11:37 pm
(11:37:57 PM): haha
(11:37:59 PM): yea....
(11:38:06 PM): thats probably why god made dicks
(11:38:07 PM): LOL
f0kkshietitstam 11:38 pm
(11:38:48 PM): HAHA.
(11:38:50 PM): probably.
(11:38:55 PM): but why do guys have nipples
(11:38:58 PM): lol
CHRISTINA 11:39 pm
(11:39:49 PM): uhh...
(11:39:50 PM): huh...
(11:39:51 PM): dang...
(11:39:53 PM): idk
CHRISTINA 11:39 pm
(11:39:59 PM): LOL
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f0kkshietitstam 12:50 am
(12:51:23 AM): oh sounds good. (: so, i have a qustion myles.
(12:51:48 AM): why do guys have nipples?
MYLES 12:53 am
(12:53:52 AM): Hahaha this girl lolzz because its just anatomically correct aha
f0kkshietitstam 12:54 am
(12:54:35 AM): LOL. anatomically. what if its ANATOMICALLY wrong? ):
MYLES 12:55 am
(12:55:06 AM): Thennn that would be someting like no nipples aha
f0kkshietitstam 12:55 am
(12:55:26 AM): oh yeah... you're right. thank you myles. ima post this up on my blog. haha. <3
Thursday, May 27, 2010
moment of change.
current mood: stupefied.
current song: drake ft. alicia keys - fireworks.
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summer vacation; on.
school; off.
it doesn't even feel like it. i still can't believe i just witnessed '10 receive their diploma just a few days ago. i still remember when i met them all while i was just still a frosh and they were only in their second year of highschool. now, i'm about to experience my last year soon. everything seems so unreal sometimes & there's alot of change in such a short amount of time. but its crazy how fresh the memories are in my head. like.. everything just happened yesterday or not too long ago.
within time... there were many ups&downs. i went through some drama that i didn't even imagine going through. however, once getting over everything, i learned alot about myself. the biggest ups of all was that i met such amazing people along the way. some, that i want to keep for a lifetime's worth. i lost some also. it's all good though, cos people always come and go in someone's life, but it's their impact that will stay forever.
gosh though, '10 seniors. you guys were the year that i was most closest to. & made the most memories with. i love you all foreals. thank you a billion times for being such great aspects in my life. i won't forget all the good memories that we've created together. <3
now, once summer is over. it's my turn to get the fuck out. i can't wait. but at the same time, i'm wondering what other obstacles that i'll encounter. who else i'll meet. who's going to leave. & who's staying. whatever it is though, i'm ready. trey songz, ready. ;) oh yeah. seniorrr, saaay whaaat?!
current song: drake ft. alicia keys - fireworks.
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summer vacation; on.
school; off.
it doesn't even feel like it. i still can't believe i just witnessed '10 receive their diploma just a few days ago. i still remember when i met them all while i was just still a frosh and they were only in their second year of highschool. now, i'm about to experience my last year soon. everything seems so unreal sometimes & there's alot of change in such a short amount of time. but its crazy how fresh the memories are in my head. like.. everything just happened yesterday or not too long ago.
within time... there were many ups&downs. i went through some drama that i didn't even imagine going through. however, once getting over everything, i learned alot about myself. the biggest ups of all was that i met such amazing people along the way. some, that i want to keep for a lifetime's worth. i lost some also. it's all good though, cos people always come and go in someone's life, but it's their impact that will stay forever.
gosh though, '10 seniors. you guys were the year that i was most closest to. & made the most memories with. i love you all foreals. thank you a billion times for being such great aspects in my life. i won't forget all the good memories that we've created together. <3
now, once summer is over. it's my turn to get the fuck out. i can't wait. but at the same time, i'm wondering what other obstacles that i'll encounter. who else i'll meet. who's going to leave. & who's staying. whatever it is though, i'm ready. trey songz, ready. ;) oh yeah. seniorrr, saaay whaaat?!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
anniebananie.
current song: lil crazed - down for life.
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HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! <3
okay, theres alot of things... i wanna say, so i think... i'll just write it all out here. then once find time to get you your gift, & i'll summarize on the card. :)
wow. can you believe that, we've known eachother for almost 8 years now. we go... all the way back. i still just remember meeting you from when you first came here during 4th grade. back then, we had to stand in single file lines before getting to class. i recall... the teacher giving you a tour of the school. then, she left you with my group while we were waiting in the lines. & i asked you, if you were chinese cos emily thought you were but i knew you weren't since i overheard you talking vietnamese with your parents at the door. who knew, that question would lead to such an interesting friendship. & yeah, i know we aren't as close as we used to. don't talk that very often as before. but i still want you to know you have made the biggest impact on my life. i honestly would not be the person i am today if i weren't to have met you. & i know i can't find another bestfriend like you forsuuure. we had our shares of highs and lows. i'm glad there were more highs in our friendship. & we aren't one of those typical best friends that start drama over stupid shit. we're too good for that. :) if there is anything that you need. i gotchu. all the time, regardless. thank you a gazillion times for everything you did for me. i'll forever cherish all of the memories we had together. & hopefully there will be more within the future. lalaloveyou bestfriend. <3
throwbackk .
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HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! <3
okay, theres alot of things... i wanna say, so i think... i'll just write it all out here. then once find time to get you your gift, & i'll summarize on the card. :)
wow. can you believe that, we've known eachother for almost 8 years now. we go... all the way back. i still just remember meeting you from when you first came here during 4th grade. back then, we had to stand in single file lines before getting to class. i recall... the teacher giving you a tour of the school. then, she left you with my group while we were waiting in the lines. & i asked you, if you were chinese cos emily thought you were but i knew you weren't since i overheard you talking vietnamese with your parents at the door. who knew, that question would lead to such an interesting friendship. & yeah, i know we aren't as close as we used to. don't talk that very often as before. but i still want you to know you have made the biggest impact on my life. i honestly would not be the person i am today if i weren't to have met you. & i know i can't find another bestfriend like you forsuuure. we had our shares of highs and lows. i'm glad there were more highs in our friendship. & we aren't one of those typical best friends that start drama over stupid shit. we're too good for that. :) if there is anything that you need. i gotchu. all the time, regardless. thank you a gazillion times for everything you did for me. i'll forever cherish all of the memories we had together. & hopefully there will be more within the future. lalaloveyou bestfriend. <3
throwbackk .
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
man's bestfriend.
current song: chris brown ft. tyga & bow wow - ain't thinkin' about you.
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i could use oneeeeeeee . ;/
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i could use oneeeeeeee . ;/
Saturday, May 22, 2010
i'm not perfect.
current song: mila j. ft. marques houston - good lookin' out.
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"we all make mistakes. it’s so cliché. but sometimes we still need to be reminded.. that nobody can be the perfect child, the perfect lover, the perfect bestfriend… that even the nicest person you know can get angry, the most patient can get tired of waiting.. and the one you thought will never let you down, will probably do during some point in your life.. but we have to know that we make mistakes.. but they should never make who we are.. that’s why there’s such a thing called forgiveness. we must learn to forgive ourselves during the times we fall short. during the moments we disappoint our loved ones. or when we hurt our friends.. forgive, not punish. and know that even if you can’t be perfect, you can still always strive to be a better person."
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"we all make mistakes. it’s so cliché. but sometimes we still need to be reminded.. that nobody can be the perfect child, the perfect lover, the perfect bestfriend… that even the nicest person you know can get angry, the most patient can get tired of waiting.. and the one you thought will never let you down, will probably do during some point in your life.. but we have to know that we make mistakes.. but they should never make who we are.. that’s why there’s such a thing called forgiveness. we must learn to forgive ourselves during the times we fall short. during the moments we disappoint our loved ones. or when we hurt our friends.. forgive, not punish. and know that even if you can’t be perfect, you can still always strive to be a better person."
Friday, May 21, 2010
smooth operator.
choreo cookies/funknometry...
keone madrid & mariel martin.
<3
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"I see dance being used as communication between body and soul, to express what it too deep to find for words." ~Ruth St. Denis
Thursday, May 20, 2010
best friends are for... ?
current mood: jumbled.
current song: glee - dream a little dream.
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as a child, we believe in fairytales, monsters under our bed, cooties, our parents were our superheroes, losing teeth means money from the tooth fairy, kissing can make you pregnant, & there was no clue to as where babies come from. but most importantly, along the way, we believe to one day find a best friend that we'll have for the rest of our lives. slowly growing up, i've encountered many best friends & sometimes, i befriended the wrong people & had my back stabbed by a few. i don't mind cos it helped me become who i am today. although, once encountering that true friend, it's the happiest feeling to know that you have someone to confide in for support, comfort, and daily talks about anything and everything. sadly, life is a constant change & nothing lasts forever, even the most attached friendship can slowly loosen. i'm starting to feel like that recently. looking back, i realized that all my close friendships seem to be the most greatest at first. but somehow... some way... we always find a way to be distant either for a short period of time, or it just becomes acquaintance level. foreal, i understand, they have other things to do and other people to see. i respect that. but, dang... am i doing something wrong here? cos shoot, i try to put effort. & its always me to initiate every conversation. when are you finna try for a change? eh, whatevers. >;/ it really is what it is.
current song: glee - dream a little dream.
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as a child, we believe in fairytales, monsters under our bed, cooties, our parents were our superheroes, losing teeth means money from the tooth fairy, kissing can make you pregnant, & there was no clue to as where babies come from. but most importantly, along the way, we believe to one day find a best friend that we'll have for the rest of our lives. slowly growing up, i've encountered many best friends & sometimes, i befriended the wrong people & had my back stabbed by a few. i don't mind cos it helped me become who i am today. although, once encountering that true friend, it's the happiest feeling to know that you have someone to confide in for support, comfort, and daily talks about anything and everything. sadly, life is a constant change & nothing lasts forever, even the most attached friendship can slowly loosen. i'm starting to feel like that recently. looking back, i realized that all my close friendships seem to be the most greatest at first. but somehow... some way... we always find a way to be distant either for a short period of time, or it just becomes acquaintance level. foreal, i understand, they have other things to do and other people to see. i respect that. but, dang... am i doing something wrong here? cos shoot, i try to put effort. & its always me to initiate every conversation. when are you finna try for a change? eh, whatevers. >;/ it really is what it is.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
bring 'em highs.
current song: travie mccoy ft. bruno mars - billionaire.
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NIKE DUNK VINTAGE.
MISTER CARTOON X NIKE DUNK HI AC.
NIKE DUNK HI “PATCHWORK” PACK.
AIR JORDAN 1 RETRO HIGH.
CLAE 2009 FALL COLLECTION DELIVERY 2.
VANS CHUKKA LOW.
NIKE DUNK HIGH GINGHAM.
PUNKROSE NIC HIGH.
ughhghg. i waaaanttt.
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NIKE DUNK VINTAGE.
MISTER CARTOON X NIKE DUNK HI AC.
NIKE DUNK HI “PATCHWORK” PACK.
AIR JORDAN 1 RETRO HIGH.
CLAE 2009 FALL COLLECTION DELIVERY 2.
VANS CHUKKA LOW.
NIKE DUNK HIGH GINGHAM.
PUNKROSE NIC HIGH.
ughhghg. i waaaanttt.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
ooh snaaaaaps.
current mood: stiff.
current song: mike posner ft. big sean - speed of sound.
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school seems to feel a bit emptier already. its the seniors' last day. i'm going to really miss them a whole lot once i don't see the same faces smiling at me going through campus. it struck me again how time doesn't slow down for anybody. but i wish it would cut me some slack sometimes. sitting in class, i kinda regret not taking high school as seriously as i should have in the past. oh well though, i find school to not have any priority until i get to college. i think high school is the journey you take to learn life lessons taking a step towards independence slowly maturing into adulthood.
the weather was quite nice today. not too hot or cold. & there was a welcoming breeze gently brushing on upon my face. :) my 1st period sucked though; i forgot that i had a final for animal anatomy, so i didn't study for it. >;/ 2nd period; i'm rushing to finish the music video for animation. i have good ideas. but its hard getting them organized. 3rd period; i had a math test. i think i did okay. but there were a problem or two that i was unsure about. i hoped i guessed them right though. 4th period; we finished the book "as eyes were watching god" for english. it was pretty touching. i agree with the love lesson. once you've experienced a portion of your life with your soulmate... life afterwards, seems to be the most fullfilling.
after school; my sister came back from davis to pick me up & take me to the lab to get a blood test. i still get anxious at the thought of blood being drawn from me. but it wasn't as bad as when i was an infant. i used to be terrified of the thought of it that i would start ballin' out before the needle even came close to me. now, the fear seems to be fading away as i got older & realized that this cycle of blood tests and check-ups are going to occur for the rest of my life--so i can actually live my life. so, i guess i better get used to everything since it's beneficial to my health. i still can't look at the needle peircing through my vein... but i can look at it when i know its stable. still freaks the shizzles out of me. i'm glad i didn't overreact even though the freakin' lady missed the vein in my arm. therefore, resorted to drawing blood from my right hand. having the needle pulled out is one of the biggest feelings of relief. ugh, i felt nauseated afterwards thouugh. .__.
ohh, !@#$%. o___e;
current song: mike posner ft. big sean - speed of sound.
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school seems to feel a bit emptier already. its the seniors' last day. i'm going to really miss them a whole lot once i don't see the same faces smiling at me going through campus. it struck me again how time doesn't slow down for anybody. but i wish it would cut me some slack sometimes. sitting in class, i kinda regret not taking high school as seriously as i should have in the past. oh well though, i find school to not have any priority until i get to college. i think high school is the journey you take to learn life lessons taking a step towards independence slowly maturing into adulthood.
the weather was quite nice today. not too hot or cold. & there was a welcoming breeze gently brushing on upon my face. :) my 1st period sucked though; i forgot that i had a final for animal anatomy, so i didn't study for it. >;/ 2nd period; i'm rushing to finish the music video for animation. i have good ideas. but its hard getting them organized. 3rd period; i had a math test. i think i did okay. but there were a problem or two that i was unsure about. i hoped i guessed them right though. 4th period; we finished the book "as eyes were watching god" for english. it was pretty touching. i agree with the love lesson. once you've experienced a portion of your life with your soulmate... life afterwards, seems to be the most fullfilling.
after school; my sister came back from davis to pick me up & take me to the lab to get a blood test. i still get anxious at the thought of blood being drawn from me. but it wasn't as bad as when i was an infant. i used to be terrified of the thought of it that i would start ballin' out before the needle even came close to me. now, the fear seems to be fading away as i got older & realized that this cycle of blood tests and check-ups are going to occur for the rest of my life--so i can actually live my life. so, i guess i better get used to everything since it's beneficial to my health. i still can't look at the needle peircing through my vein... but i can look at it when i know its stable. still freaks the shizzles out of me. i'm glad i didn't overreact even though the freakin' lady missed the vein in my arm. therefore, resorted to drawing blood from my right hand. having the needle pulled out is one of the biggest feelings of relief. ugh, i felt nauseated afterwards thouugh. .__.
ohh, !@#$%. o___e;
Monday, May 17, 2010
unpredictable.
current mood: positive.
current song: bruno mars - count on me.
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"no matter how many plans we make or steps we follow, we never know how our day is going to end up. we’d prefer to know, of course, what curveballs will be thrown our way. it’s the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting parts of our day, the people we never expected to show up, a turn of events we never would have chose for ourselves. all of a sudden you find yourself somewhere you never expected to be and its nice, or it takes some getting used to. still, maybe you’ll find yourself appreciating it somewhere down the line. so you go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow, going over your plans, preparing for them, and hoping that whatever accidents come your way will be happy ones."
- grey’s anatomy
current song: bruno mars - count on me.
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"no matter how many plans we make or steps we follow, we never know how our day is going to end up. we’d prefer to know, of course, what curveballs will be thrown our way. it’s the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting parts of our day, the people we never expected to show up, a turn of events we never would have chose for ourselves. all of a sudden you find yourself somewhere you never expected to be and its nice, or it takes some getting used to. still, maybe you’ll find yourself appreciating it somewhere down the line. so you go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow, going over your plans, preparing for them, and hoping that whatever accidents come your way will be happy ones."
- grey’s anatomy
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
be real, homieee.
current mood: baffled.
current song: the dream ft. t.i. - f.i.l.a.
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i don't like it when people try hard to be something they're not.
like, FUNNY people. okay. if you're not funny. please, don't try.
you might hurt yourself by keeping up this lie.
cos, tam will not laugh inside. maybe on the outside cos i'm nice.
but in reality, just know when you turn your head, i will look at you like "O'_'o".
saaaaaaaaaay whaaaaat? this bitch... gotta shuttup... foreals....
thaaaa fuuuuck, yous talkin' about. "GETTT OUTTAAA HERRREEeee!"
then, i will continue to laughwith--at you if i'm having a good day.
& you guys over exaggerate your laughing, at the least funniest remarks.
"alright alright... so i'm at the office. & i tell this guy...
i said to him... i said 'hey uh, pass me the stapler. but when you pass it,
make sure staples are in it. cos if there isn't. i can't staple anything."
"OhhHAHahhaAHhahhahahaHoohHahaOo asjkdlsadsa!"
oh yeah. i know you. i see whatchu doin'. you bestaa stooop.
pleaaaaaaase, be yourself.
don't lie about anything to make yourself look cooler.
i can tell. & when i do. we good, but we will not be homies.
cos, if you're yourself. you are, the coolest.
tam loves real things. real cars. real dinosaurs. real cheese.
real... fingers. real... buns. real... slippers. real homies.
yeah, everything gots to be real. ya feeeeeel. ;)
keep it real while them others stay plastic...
you my.. wonder.... something... mr. fantastic...
"shaaabaaam." easy peeezy, brehbrehbrehhh.
trueeee that !
thank yaaaaa, sweetie. <3
((10/26/2011 Sidebust)) The fck is this. LOL. Some about fake people or what... I was high on some shit forsure...
current song: the dream ft. t.i. - f.i.l.a.
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i don't like it when people try hard to be something they're not.
like, FUNNY people. okay. if you're not funny. please, don't try.
you might hurt yourself by keeping up this lie.
cos, tam will not laugh inside. maybe on the outside cos i'm nice.
but in reality, just know when you turn your head, i will look at you like "O'_'o".
saaaaaaaaaay whaaaaat? this bitch... gotta shuttup... foreals....
thaaaa fuuuuck, yous talkin' about. "GETTT OUTTAAA HERRREEeee!"
then, i will continue to laugh
& you guys over exaggerate your laughing, at the least funniest remarks.
"alright alright... so i'm at the office. & i tell this guy...
i said to him... i said 'hey uh, pass me the stapler. but when you pass it,
make sure staples are in it. cos if there isn't. i can't staple anything."
"OhhHAHahhaAHhahhahahaHoohHahaOo asjkdlsadsa!"
oh yeah. i know you. i see whatchu doin'. you bestaa stooop.
pleaaaaaaase, be yourself.
don't lie about anything to make yourself look cooler.
i can tell. & when i do. we good, but we will not be homies.
cos, if you're yourself. you are, the coolest.
tam loves real things. real cars. real dinosaurs. real cheese.
real... fingers. real... buns. real... slippers. real homies.
yeah, everything gots to be real. ya feeeeeel. ;)
keep it real while them others stay plastic...
you my.. wonder.... something... mr. fantastic...
"shaaabaaam." easy peeezy, brehbrehbrehhh.
trueeee that !
thank yaaaaa, sweetie. <3
((10/26/2011 Sidebust)) The fck is this. LOL. Some about fake people or what... I was high on some shit forsure...
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
catchin' z's.
current mood: placid.
current song: drake - find your love.
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oh geeeeez, tam.i.am is always sleepy now; even with naps. 2 weeks of school left. time is zoomin' by craazy fast. can't wait for that summaaatiiime thoo, so i can be a snorlax and wake up exactly at three o' clock all daaay, everydaaaay niiiiiiiiikuuuuh.
"LOL, it's okay. i gotchu. master ball ;)"
"Alrite. we'll see. ;)"
"yes, we shall :]"
current song: drake - find your love.
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oh geeeeez, tam.i.am is always sleepy now; even with naps. 2 weeks of school left. time is zoomin' by craazy fast. can't wait for that summaaatiiime thoo, so i can be a snorlax and wake up exactly at three o' clock all daaay, everydaaaay niiiiiiiiikuuuuh.
"LOL, it's okay. i gotchu. master ball ;)"
"Alrite. we'll see. ;)"
"yes, we shall :]"
Monday, May 10, 2010
cos this love is a sure thing.
throwbackk; Kyle Hanagami & Ellen Kim.
my idols. lalaloveeee. :)
i miss dancing. :(
"If you be the cash
I'll be the rubberband
You be the match
Imma be your fuse
Boom!
Painter baby you
Could be the muse
I'm the reporter baby
You could be the news
Cause your the cigarrette
And I'm the smoker
We raise a bet...
Cause your a joker
Truth tho...
You are the chalk
And I could be the blackboard
And you can be the talk
And I could be the walk
Even when the sky comes falling
Even when the sun don't shine
I got faith in you and I
So put your pretty little hand in mine
Even when we're down to the wire babe
Even when it's do or die
We can do it baby simple and plain
This love is a sure thing."
my idols. lalaloveeee. :)
i miss dancing. :(
"If you be the cash
I'll be the rubberband
You be the match
Imma be your fuse
Boom!
Painter baby you
Could be the muse
I'm the reporter baby
You could be the news
Cause your the cigarrette
And I'm the smoker
We raise a bet...
Cause your a joker
Truth tho...
You are the chalk
And I could be the blackboard
And you can be the talk
And I could be the walk
Even when the sky comes falling
Even when the sun don't shine
I got faith in you and I
So put your pretty little hand in mine
Even when we're down to the wire babe
Even when it's do or die
We can do it baby simple and plain
This love is a sure thing."
Sunday, May 9, 2010
mommy's day.
current song: ne-yo - don't worry about it.
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hi motherrrr.
i know i'm not your favorite daughter. but i still try. you piss me off almost everyday of the week. & you diss my hugs. i dunno what's up with Viet parents not wanting hugs. :'( they make the world goooo. it's cool though, cos at least you give some bomb high-fives. anways, despite the bickering. i can't imagine getting pissed off by any other mom. thank you for everything you've done for me. & although, we butt heads here and there. just know, it's all outta l-o-v-e.
sooo. happy belated __ birthday. & happy mommys day.
I <3 YOU, MEI OI'. ;)
you're awesome. cos you made me.
oh yeah. (x
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hi motherrrr.
i know i'm not your favorite daughter. but i still try. you piss me off almost everyday of the week. & you diss my hugs. i dunno what's up with Viet parents not wanting hugs. :'( they make the world goooo. it's cool though, cos at least you give some bomb high-fives. anways, despite the bickering. i can't imagine getting pissed off by any other mom. thank you for everything you've done for me. & although, we butt heads here and there. just know, it's all outta l-o-v-e.
sooo. happy belated __ birthday. & happy mommys day.
I <3 YOU, MEI OI'. ;)
you're awesome. cos you made me.
oh yeah. (x
first love, my ass.
current song: jdkslajfas fuck you.
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dear you,
it's may now. can you believe that? time really goes by too fast. it was just about 2 years ago when we first met. bogus ball, right. i was a frosh and you were just old. i remember, you gave me one bad first impression. with your "guess my girlfriends age." & lied she was younger when she was actually older than you. asshole, good thing i had annie with me. then, you persistently pursued me for the whole school year. aren't you lucky, you eventually got through? geez though, where is my ten bucks at? jkay. who knew... in time, you gave me more than i can ever get from money. you were the first guy that i was closest to. my first relationship. you were one of my best friends. my lover. you meant everything. there were some ups some downs. we got through them. unfortunately, some downs were too overwhelming & caused us to break apart. 1 year and 6 months. i don't regret one bit of it. although, we are over. i'll always keep a place for you in my heart. without you, i wouldn't be the person i am today, the person i always wanted to be. thank you so much for all the embrace, smiles, laughs, tears, the heartache... the memories. i am very grateful for all of the ups within our relationship. even the downs--however, sometimes the pain would be unbearable. i got through it. with that, i am a much stronger person. so, thank you so much for everything you did for me. & i know you said, it wasn't as much as i've given you. but it is enough, cos it's all i ever asked for. you taught me what's it like to love. to be in love. opened me to the meaning of true love. & i couldn't ask for anything else. i'm glad that we can finally now close our chapter in peace. & i hope you that your new chapter is filled with happiness. :) i wish you success in everything that you choose to do. i'll love you always. take care.
yours truly,
<3
fck everythin. fck you bitchass.
Friday, May 7, 2010
strummin' my pain.
current mood: productive.
current song: kira - valentine.
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my dad has a guitar. no one plays it. so, i think ima try to make it a little less lonely and learn something from it until my parents get me a piano/keyboard sometime over summer. since, they sold our only piano long ago in a yard saleee. >;( but wish me luck! i'm never really good with guitars. i remember my parents bought alot which my brother and i managed to break them all somehow... hopefully this time is different since i know better now. like to not try to pee like the boys do. haha. oh yeaaah. expect to see boy band status... siiike.
NOTES FOR GUITAR;
E = EAT
A = ALL
D = DAY
G = GET
B = BIG
E = EASY
my demonic device.
cos im faaat.
:D
current song: kira - valentine.
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my dad has a guitar. no one plays it. so, i think ima try to make it a little less lonely and learn something from it until my parents get me a piano/keyboard sometime over summer. since, they sold our only piano long ago in a yard saleee. >;( but wish me luck! i'm never really good with guitars. i remember my parents bought alot which my brother and i managed to break them all somehow... hopefully this time is different since i know better now. like to not try to pee like the boys do. haha. oh yeaaah. expect to see boy band status... siiike.
NOTES FOR GUITAR;
E = EAT
A = ALL
D = DAY
G = GET
B = BIG
E = EASY
my demonic device.
cos im faaat.
:D
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
at musing's end.
current song: hope - bring me flowers.
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"after that, there's was no point in counting,
cos it was already obvious what's been happening.
& when it's happening,
there's only 2 things that seem to matter,
you and him."
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"after that, there's was no point in counting,
cos it was already obvious what's been happening.
& when it's happening,
there's only 2 things that seem to matter,
you and him."
Monday, May 3, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
all around us.
current song: suho ft. IU - sunday through monday.
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"beauty is all around us, especially in places where we least expect them."
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"beauty is all around us, especially in places where we least expect them."
the best imperfections.
current mood: enlightened.
current song: nevershoutnever! - happy.
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i never really broke out before in my life. & when i do. usually it's just ONE small pimple and it goes away within 2 days. recently, i've had 2 on my forehead, and now i currently have big burtha on my cheek. it's disguisting. i still don't get the point of having red dots on your face. if you take the time to connect them, they usually don't make anything neat. not that i have... lol. even though, with nasty ass pimples. i'm pretty grateful for them cos it reminds me that no one is perfect. most of the time, we tend to judge someone right off the bat by their cover. but if you actually take the time to read their story, there is actually something quite beautiful or significant about that individual. always look beyond the imperfections. :) & of course, with people, there's life. life is surely never perfect. not everything is going to go your way. but even with the misleaded path, we must make the best of that direction cos although it might not be what you wanted or expected now, it can be later. i truly believe that everything happens for a reason; good or bad. if circumstances seem bad. we always gotta keep our heads up high and hope for the best in the future. & with every good opportunity we receive, we must grasp it with both hands. don't wait. sometimes we have to be selfish for happiness; if being selfish is acceptable that is. happiness is a two-way street. if it seems to only have one way. you're in the wrong place. so get out as soon as you can. if you continue to stay on that one-way street. you're going to get no where but many dead-ends. so retrace your steps back home. & continue your pursuit to happiness; find that street. make sure of where you're going though, cos you never know-- it may be right in front of you all along.
current song: nevershoutnever! - happy.
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i never really broke out before in my life. & when i do. usually it's just ONE small pimple and it goes away within 2 days. recently, i've had 2 on my forehead, and now i currently have big burtha on my cheek. it's disguisting. i still don't get the point of having red dots on your face. if you take the time to connect them, they usually don't make anything neat. not that i have... lol. even though, with nasty ass pimples. i'm pretty grateful for them cos it reminds me that no one is perfect. most of the time, we tend to judge someone right off the bat by their cover. but if you actually take the time to read their story, there is actually something quite beautiful or significant about that individual. always look beyond the imperfections. :) & of course, with people, there's life. life is surely never perfect. not everything is going to go your way. but even with the misleaded path, we must make the best of that direction cos although it might not be what you wanted or expected now, it can be later. i truly believe that everything happens for a reason; good or bad. if circumstances seem bad. we always gotta keep our heads up high and hope for the best in the future. & with every good opportunity we receive, we must grasp it with both hands. don't wait. sometimes we have to be selfish for happiness; if being selfish is acceptable that is. happiness is a two-way street. if it seems to only have one way. you're in the wrong place. so get out as soon as you can. if you continue to stay on that one-way street. you're going to get no where but many dead-ends. so retrace your steps back home. & continue your pursuit to happiness; find that street. make sure of where you're going though, cos you never know-- it may be right in front of you all along.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
he's just not that into you.
current song: twista ft. mr. carpone-e - don't get it twisted.
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“If a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a shit, it’s because he doesn’t give a shit. If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will. Men don’t forget how much they like you, so put down the phone. If a guy doesn't call you, he doesn’t want to call you. Calling when you say you’re going to call is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. If he can’t lay this one stupid brick down, you ain’t never gonna have a house, baby. And it’s cold outside. Don’t let the “honeys” and the “babys” fool you. His sweet nothings are exactly that. They are much easier to say than “I’m just not that into you.” Remember, actions speak louder than, “There’s no cell reception where I am right now.” A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he’s not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he’s showing up at your new residence to do it in person… if he’s not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he’s just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it’s like to live without you. Don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable. Breakup sex still means you’re broken up. Cut him off. Let him miss you. The reason it’s so painful when someone disappears is you have to face the fact that the person you loved had probably left you a long time before he grabbed his coat and scrammed. The part is realizing that he was lying to you, in some way, before the moment of vanishing. Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company. He doesn’t need to be reminded that you’re great. There’s a guy out there who’s going to be really happy that you didn’t get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend. Don’t give him the chance to reject you again. No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing."
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“If a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a shit, it’s because he doesn’t give a shit. If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will. Men don’t forget how much they like you, so put down the phone. If a guy doesn't call you, he doesn’t want to call you. Calling when you say you’re going to call is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. If he can’t lay this one stupid brick down, you ain’t never gonna have a house, baby. And it’s cold outside. Don’t let the “honeys” and the “babys” fool you. His sweet nothings are exactly that. They are much easier to say than “I’m just not that into you.” Remember, actions speak louder than, “There’s no cell reception where I am right now.” A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he’s not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he’s showing up at your new residence to do it in person… if he’s not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he’s just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it’s like to live without you. Don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable. Breakup sex still means you’re broken up. Cut him off. Let him miss you. The reason it’s so painful when someone disappears is you have to face the fact that the person you loved had probably left you a long time before he grabbed his coat and scrammed. The part is realizing that he was lying to you, in some way, before the moment of vanishing. Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company. He doesn’t need to be reminded that you’re great. There’s a guy out there who’s going to be really happy that you didn’t get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend. Don’t give him the chance to reject you again. No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing."
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