best friends are for... ?

current mood: jumbled.
current song: glee - dream a little dream.

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as a child, we believe in fairytales, monsters under our bed, cooties, our parents were our superheroes, losing teeth means money from the tooth fairy, kissing can make you pregnant, & there was no clue to as where babies come from. but most importantly, along the way, we believe to one day find a best friend that we'll have for the rest of our lives. slowly growing up, i've encountered many best friends & sometimes, i befriended the wrong people & had my back stabbed by a few. i don't mind cos it helped me become who i am today. although, once encountering that true friend, it's the happiest feeling to know that you have someone to confide in for support, comfort, and daily talks about anything and everything. sadly, life is a constant change & nothing lasts forever, even the most attached friendship can slowly loosen. i'm starting to feel like that recently. looking back, i realized that all my close friendships seem to be the most greatest at first. but somehow... some way... we always find a way to be distant either for a short period of time, or it just becomes acquaintance level. foreal, i understand, they have other things to do and other people to see. i respect that. but, dang... am i doing something wrong here? cos shoot, i try to put effort. & its always me to initiate every conversation. when are you finna try for a change? eh, whatevers. >;/ it really is what it is.