Rollin in the deep: Pt I.

I feel like I'm just fckin' foolin everybody everytime I be flashin a smile. I try to convince myself that shit, I got a real ass smile, I'm okay, yeah, I'm happy, I got it but if I really take the time to evaluate myself and what's goin on deep inside my mind & my heart I realize that there's alot of pain and issues. Lately I've been catchin myself gettin real emotional about things and stressin on how life will never be like it used to be, or... mostly cus I ain't like how I used to be.  I was that girl who was real strong, kept shit movin when times was hard and always tried to lean towards the side where the grass was always green. Now I feel like there's only shades of brown left and no matter how hard I try to water it down, shit won't ever come back to life.

Honestly, I hate to say this phrase since it's so stupid and over used for the most annoyin shit by people who think they got it the worst when it's nothin, but FML foreal at this moment. Its 4 in the fckin mornin. Tried to knock out but I can't sleep at all since my rash is actin up like crazy and I can feel it spreadin for no damn reason. Plus all my movin around is screwin up babe's sleep too. The general creams ain't workin. Stupid doctors can't do their jobs and just call me back. I probably can't go to school again like this plus I am too fckin irritated for hwk. Fck this.

I said all that foreal?

I'm browsin thru my shit like.. whaat that ain't me. The fck was I on back in the day? The blogs I be writin were hella pointless & shit. It's all that nyquil from bein sick 3 times straight for daysss back in 09. Whackest shit ever. hahahha.

Ya'll bitches don't make sense.

"Raise your own damn money and buy it yourself?!" "The fck, I don't got enough money. Where am I gonna get alla that." "Buy a cheap one then it's only 100 something..." ????

Hah. Unbelievable. honestly. Are you seriously bullshittin me right now?

Damn foreal. It's my shit yet I can't use it? Just like a car, just like a simple ride to school, or simply just MY shit? You can't provide for me that? Wait.. nevermind, ya'll can't even provide me the love and support a REAL motherfckin parent should. What the fck. I don't get it. If I ain't gonna use my shit then who will? Ghosts? FCK you selfish ass bitches. I hate ya'll. That's why I moved out in the first damn place you motherfckin unsupportive bitches. Can't do nones straight & ya'll expect me to come back like that? You think that just cus I get a home-cooked meal every night is aboutta cut it? But do I get anything else? NO. Fck you. I don't give a shit if I starve out here but if ya'll can't support me then what's the point of every meal? Is it even filled with any affection, a care or just cus ya'll be cookin for yourselves in the first place and since there's still food, you decide to invite me? Is that why you guys call me AFTER ya'll are finished grubbin?

Why is it that my older sister gets privileged of anything and everything? If there's a need then you'll give it to her, if there's a want then ya'll TRY the best to help her get it. Then everything she doesn't need anymore you decide to then give it to me. I get her old bed, I get her old TV, if there's anything else she needs or wants then its hers while I get the leftovers. What about me tho? Tired of this favorite game. Shit... I should just get used to it by now. Ain't never had shit anyways. It's always one sideded ass shit. I help ya'll.. and get absolutely nothing in return. Thanks for nones.

CareFULL to careless.

Current mood: I'm on my period..
Current song: J.Cole - Nothing Lasts Forever.
If ya'll haven't copped Cole World: A Sideline Story yet, then you start now!

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Back in the day, I owned the label of a "really good friend". I was constantly reminded of how I am the one who knows the right words to make their frown curl up into a smile. I would be the first person to alter their negative mood into a positive one, and the last person they would talk to. If there was something wrong & I am aware of it, you already know I would be botherin the fck outta you until you feel better. Call me, text me, IM me, I will get back to you in an instant.

Nowadays, I seem to have lost that ability. Maybe it's cus I'm used to being alone for so long. I mean, it ain't my fault that everyone's too damn busy for me, right? Not my fault that everyone chooses me to be the last option. Not my fault that I'm always left in the dark about things. I'm just that girl that you can temporarily go to when you don't have nobody and when you find other bitches to vibe with or that bf/gf--I'm the girl that gets kicked to the curb like we was never down before. Even if I was a homie since years ago... yeah.. I'm just that last option.

No, no. It ain't only that. Maybe I'm just a bit fed-up. You know when you feel like you've known a person for so long even tho it's only been a short amount of time and you think they be knowin' you just as well--sharin all the thangs you be sharin, talkin the way ya'll talk; you can't just look at one face when there's another one that goes behind your back assumin' a buncha bull--naw.. wait there's more. The ones that stay close enough to you for them to call you a sister just to stab their so-called sibling in the back and neglectin them when they just wanna simply say "Hey, how are you?" Ooh, those niggas.. don't get me started on that. Once I change my relationship status, alla the sudden we ain't as coo no more? You can't be happy for me as I am for ya'll? Whoah, foreal? After I was there for your sorry-ass while I listened to you spill out your heart? Fck was your motive then punk-ass bitches? & when you're on that break-down point, who's aboutta be there for you? Wait.. You can't take a minute to reply to my call/text/IM? Alright.. I guess.. no one. 

Then you try to openin' up a new book with others but the story's always at a stand-still or closes shut before barely gettin past the introduction. A constant repeat of everything is "cool" at first then goes bitter at the end. He said she said? The fck I do? Whatchu say about me? The fck you hear that from? Everyone just always quick to judge, quick to label, or they simply have too many characters to fill yours in.

Ontop of it all. Nobody ever goes up to you and talks to you about it personally after knowin you for how long, how short, it don't matter. If they gotta problem, ain't no one ever gonna step-up to squash things out or reassure an issue witchu. They either smile in your face like they never been in the shade before or just walk past you like ya'll was strangers.

That nice girl who cares about everyone, the homegirl you can go when you ain't got nobody, the homegirl you just gonna kick to the curb when you find new bitches or a dick to jump on, that homegirl you gonna judge/assume cus of this or that, he said she said shit. I'm straight-up exhausted of playin these stupidass roles. Honestly sayin'... I don't even know what it's like to even have a true friend anymore or even make a simple friend. What's the point when everyone's aboutta dip on me at the end anyways? I know, I used to be only a call/text/phone/IM away. Now, I barely touch the AIM app, I toss my phone around like nones. Hmm, an instant? Ehh, I'll get back to you when I can, when I feel like it. Yeah, I'm tired of carin' about motherfuckers who actually never gave a shit about me.

Another Tuesday means another week. I'm just chillen at SAVA E.G. right now. Unfortunately they banned every single site except for this one. But its'all gooood bruh. Waitin for booboo to come swoop me up from class.
Kinna bittersweet in my life right about now. Just got done with gettin on that stupidass California Food Handler's thang so I can hop on this job. YUP. Guess who got hired?! Couldn't believe it... on spot interview at this Italian restaurant(??) and everythin. Hope it pays good cus my banks on low right now.
Now, the part that got me feelin down is how I won't be able to get my shit over with until like... April and I was grindin hella hard too. Scratched out my U.S. history shit in like 2 days... but whatever, it is what it is. The only thing you can do about your mistakes is to make up for them.

& you know what else...

It's hella funny how niggas use their little siblings to pick up guys/girls. Lol.

Letter: Day 14.

Someone I've drifted away from.


Dear Bestfriend,

We always be sayin how down we was and always will be. Like how we can just not communicate to one another for days and felt like nothin happened between us. Yeah, it can partially be true, but I would be lyin to myself if I was to say it's been like that with us all the time. You see, cus the reality of it all is that I've been here floatin around same boat while you're hoppin from one to another. I know there's a sayin that you can have more than one bestfriend. I understand that. I'm just tryna say that maybe I don't feel as if you need me as much as you used to or mainly at all since you have so many other people in your circle who you'd rather have be there for you besides me.

Maybe it's my bad? For being physically gone for so long. Not bein able to answer back to a "hang-out" text a few hours late cus my phone's been tossed around somewhere. I guess it's just cus I feel like everytime we do try, we fail. How many summers have we planned & they haven't worked out? Then at school.. how many times have we passed by one another and not give one another a greet? I felt like my greeting to you wouldn't matter since you seemed to be happy with your new circle of friends & I'm the intruder.

What else got me is that I feel like I'm the only one who's been puttin our friendship in the same light while you dimmed out yours. Everytime I ask you about something simple it's always a secret, where as I give you every detail of my life cus I know you have my uttermost trust & there won't be anyone else to hear it but you. I guess I lost yours along the way.

The moment that made everything relevant tho, was when we got done with Tahitian auditions for senior year.. you had asked your other friends for a ride, but as soon as they weren't able to.. that's when you came to me. After that... everything was silent. I guess I had no more words to say cus I felt kinna hurt. I knew from that instant... I wasn't your bestfriend anymore. I was just your last option... 8 long years since our friendship, but is it made out to be? I don't know. Can't blame anything else but change, huh.

<3,
Yours truly.

I was so stupid, so naive for love back then. I guess I fabricated my emotions so I can feel what everyone else was feeling. Little did I know.. everyone was feeling the same thing as I did since it wasn't as long lasted, it all fades away. If that makes sense?? Basically, looks can be deceiving. You can't base everything you see on the ouside to be the same behind closed doors. One thing I've learned on my romantic journey is that once a door closes, another one opens. You move on to find someone better. Some people aren't as lucky to open the right door.. thankfully, I was. Now that I have gone through the this door.. I guess I'm sayin I don't want it to close just yet. But what can you do? As much as I wished I could.. I don't believe in how people say.. "if it's worth it, fight for it." I've been fighting... my own way. I try to be better. I make up for my mistakes the best way I can. Though, what's there to fight for if you're in this battle alone? If it's true love you both fight to be with one another. A person's heart shouldn't be taken away, it should be a given.

i love phi ho :]

photo: day 14.

current moood: freeezy weezy.
current song: if i couldn't paint a picture with my words, or can't bring you bright lights with a stage, would you still love me? would you still love me?

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A photo of one of your favorite family members.



My and my Cheestaarz hands down!
I wish she wasn't so busy with work right now tho. ):<
@ Pizza Hut waiting for my bros order to be done right after my first time tryin Andy Nguyen's [Veggie Restaurant] since my sister gives up meat for lent every year.

I hate this love song...

THROWBAAACK! Er... maybe newish since it came out this year...
But ayeee, I was the third viewer on this video. (;
Randomly feelin' this song. Yeuup.

Sleepy Baaaybwee.

Current mood: awake.

Current song: epsiode of family guy, lol.

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Babe has been sleeping for awhile now, probably an hour or so, or maybe 2 hours after bein abruptly awoken since I saw a bright light at the window above the sink. It's an alien forsure, yo. What kinna alien? Most def Kanye West with his whackass alien sex & probin'. haha. Jk. Psshhh. Aliens aren't real.... Pshh... Anyways, so he's swooo kuuee, he drooled on the pillow and I rolled over to his drool on my cheek. It was hellaaa breh! It's a drooly pooly. I'm never washing it again. <143. Alright. Okay. I'm done. Goodnight my niggas.

letter: day 13 part II.

Someone you wish could forgive you.. TBC.

Dear Linda Doan,

Awh shit. This recently came in my head like... 5 minutes ago, man. Lol. Jk. Actually, this has been weighing my chest for quite some time now. Maybe for a little over a year or two.. three? There has been series of times where I wanted to message you via facebook, aim, etc. to tell you how sorry I've been. After finishing my message tho.. I always get stuck pressing the "enter/send" button, cause I'm thinking... fck, it's been how long now? Who am I to intrude on your life when I've been out of it for so long? Plus, stumbling across your tumblr one time, it seems that you have a good sense of direction of where you're going with life & content with where you're at which I am delighted to notice that you are.

7th/8th grade was it? Met through Annie in a chatroom, we became pretty close. Stupid close. Talked on the phone and aim about random shit. Did random shit together. Eventually, our solid friendship grew short after that one sour incident occurred between us, huh? Though, who's to blame for it? I guess I can partially claim guilty. It was my fault for not clarifying with you about the movies... I should've done so before. However, I never would have thought that you out of all people would talk behind my back & bring this situation to something so public such as myspace. Looking back... I have to say... it was foolish of me for being as angry as I was, especially if you weren't necessarily talking shit. Though, I took it for something more. I guess it upset me so much cause before meeting you & being reunited with my bestfriend Annie. I was kinna the odd one out in elementary school you know? I loved to have fun, I like to crack jokes, I was pretty immature, pretty stupid... maybe even annoying af. But heeey, what can you expect a kid to feel when you got recess? aha The only one that understand my humor, the way I was is my bestfriend & a couple of others. Unfortunately, everyone whom I was close to decides to move away incoming 6th grade. There were a couple of new students, new girls, who I thought were genuinely nice people. Found out that it was now all about "fitting in" and not standing out. I befriended them, & they seemed to be very welcoming until I discovered their ulterior motives for being friends with me which was only to use me for my kindness. Basically I got my first dose of what "backstabbing" feels like & I gotta say, it didn't feel good. It hurt. What did I do to make them hate me as much as they did?

Then coming across that myspace page of yours to see that you were angry of me, it kinda opened up an old wound. Cause, all I can think about is... "this girl is talking about me & thinks I wouldn't find out or what?"  From then on, I began resenting you... and seeing how clingy and close you were with our friendship, made my resentment grow. Even though.. we tried to talk it out, I don't know.. I guess I couldn't settle my emotions out. I wanted to pull back on everything so I don't have to go through the same bullshit with fake friends who would just talk behind my back over some misunderstanding & not with me about it. These negative feelings I had toward you went all bad cause I held it for so long. Over time I realized that it was completely pointless & I was definitely selfish. I didn't even think about how you felt after our tight friendship came to an end. I know I must've hurt you really bad. Probably gave you your own negative experience that you'd rather not look back on. I was a stupid friend for not taking the time to reflect on as to why I was in such midst of heat. Now I just wanna let it all go. What's the point anymore? We're both totally different people. We've grown. We're wiser. We know more.

All I have to say is that, I'm extremely sorry for everything. I'm honestly glad to see that you found your true self along the way--what interests you, & developed a good circle of friends. The smile I gave you on Monday at the office was absolutely sincere. Thank you for being such an awesome friend before. I know it can't be the same since we're obviously different. But I hope we can start a new beginning from now on. Congratulations on everything you've accomplished. I'm proud of you girl. (:

letter: day 13.

Someone you wish could forgive you.


Dear God,

I know, I'm horrible. It's been over 17 years of my life & I still haven't found time to personally talk to you about all the wrongs I've did/done. I'm sorry. I'll promise one day I'll get everything off my chest though. I just don't know when you're available to talk. ): Do you think you can call me sometime & tell me when? Okay, I love you God. Thanks for everything that you've given me & every obstacle in life you decide to throw at me to make me realize that I'm strong enough to overcome it. ♥

photo: day 13.

current mood: hmmm? almost tired. Lol.
current song: some peaceful Yiruma.

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A photo of the last place you went on holiday.

Ew, so I haven't cut my bangs yet... I look yucky. ): But babe likes it. He likes every picture I take. Lol. Cause he always looks too good in everyone of them. Fckin' sexyass.

I think we were at the mall with Lance / Hien during winter break in the apple store since Santa happened to be there! So sad how he didn't look at the camera, right?

letter: day 12.

The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.


Dear Uglyass Nigga or should I say... Kristoffer Hildickhead?

I really don't have anything to say no more. I've already said too much. What's done is done. Though, I will admit this--that out of every mistake I've encountered throughout my life, you were the one I regret the most. I gave my all to someone who clearly never deserved me. I've wasted my life, my time, my breath on someone who puts himself as the main priority. God knows, I was so exhausted trying to make this work; exerting myself pass my limits in order to make you happy when I wasn't feeling the same. It sucks to know how blind I was for you back then. I thought you cared, I thought you would be good to me, I thought after being so close to you as friends we would be better as a couple. But no, everything went downhill once we were connected romantically. I began to notice the ugliest side of you, that through & through never failed to show with every month into our relationship.

Never in my life had I met someone so despicable. You don't value your family. You have absolutely no clue on how to treat a girl. You're disrespectful. You're a down right hypocrite. You don't have any morals. You're unbelievably needy. You're cocky even tho you don't have anything to be cocky about. You break promises. You can't uphold friendships. You can't obtain a job since you're a lazy asshole. You put your tinyass dick before anything else. Man, you're just a shady grimey ass fake sorry little b*tch who doesn't have a care for anyone but his damn ugly self. That's why you ain't got no true homies that stuck witchu since the get go. Without your girl & your dancecrew, you wouldda got no freakin' body. Never have I heard anyone mention of you back at Sheldon & when they do, it's always negative feedback. I don't blame them for it though. I mean, who can stand bein' a friend with someone who you can't trust to have your back.. & you definitely stabbed mines.

Now that I think about it. Why did I even bother? You've done me dirty so many times & you did it again even after I thought we settled it all out. I heard so much... you're quite the story-teller. I broke your heart? I did you dirty? F**k you, nigga. That's all your grimeyass. You're lucky I didn't talk to Kari sooner. Wouldda faded your ugly face out right there & then foreals. Then, you got the audacity to call me rude for bringin' my boyfriend when your pops was gone? Don't even start, b**ch. Where the hell was your punkass when your dad passed away, bro? You could've prevented his death if you weren't thinkin' about your microscopic dick that weekend. But nope. Once again, proves how you take everything for granted. Now your mom's strugglin' & you ain't even helpin' her out. Just havin' her pay for your retarded dance tuition? Sorryass piece of sh*t, I swear. After your father passed away, you still ain't grown up yet? Wow. You're somethin', man.

Gosh, there's so much to say.. but I'd rather tell you physically than just writing. Just know, I.. really... don't like you, at all. It's honestly surprising to me since I ain't the type to express such negative emotions towards someone. But, I can't help that's all I feel towards every reminder of your name. Thank you for enlightening my life by getting the fck out of it. I finally know what a real man should act like & its no where near close to you. You're nothing but a low-life. Real talk, I hope karma continues to kick you in the ass hard for every person that you've hurt. I hate you, yup.

t(-_-t) from yours truly. (:

photo: day 12.

current mood: sooree.
current song: baby's blastin' up that tupacc tho!

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a photo of your favorite band/muscian.







& more... but these are most def my fav & artists who I highly admire. ♥

Letter: Day 11 Pt. II

A deceased person you wish you could talk to... TBC..


Dear Tupac Shakur,

My boyfriend seems to be very fond of you. After watching your documentary Resurrection, he became very inspired and posted a quote from it on his tumblr immediately. I was also inspired, therefore, I reblogged it from him. Ah, makes me wonder how the fck did Justin motherfcker Beiber earned his own movie when he barely did anything inspiring, nor wrote/said anything that great yet. Usher did way more shit in his lifetime than fckin' Beiber & he's actually gone through puberty, but where the heck is his documentary at? Follow your dreams, huh? Psshh. Who hasn't said that. Listen to T.I. & he'll show you the business about followin' your dreams. Foreals. What the hell Pac, you needa come back to life and keep this lil foo in check. LOL. I mean, you already know my boyfriend would make a way better prodigy than fckin Beiber. Without PHI there would be no PHIver. Get it? Haha. Real talk, I love you Pac. You're beyond great. Already know. I was bumpin' to your song California love 24/7 back in the day when I was a young'n & all your other jams. Everyone misses you--especially, your music. But it's all good cos people be still keepin' it alive til this day. Can't wait to meet you in the afterlife too. I hope you're homies with my siblings so when I come through we can be like.. TuPhamPac, PhamTuPac, PacPhamTu.... something.. something. Yeah... you're awesome man.

♥ tamtam.

letter: day 11.

A deceased person you wish you could talk to.

Dear Son Pham/Tam Pham,

Hey there big bro, hey there big sis.  One of the things that I regret living in this world is not to be given the opportunity to know you guys personally, or even the chance to meet you. Dying at such a young age, or in other cases not even the chance to experience a day living life at all is really unfortunate. If I could've given one of you guys my life you already know I would... Maybe the family would've been more together of one of you guys were here... but nope, we're so broken, so far apart. I remember An, always wished to have a brother, and when I hear that I would think of you, Son. I think he would've turned out for the best if he had a figure to look up to. It was really hard for him living under a roof of two sisters who he couldn't relate to. I wished I treated him better also. Seeing how he is now, dropped out of high school before barely starting, anger problems, always isolated from everyone. Ah... I just don't know. Oh Sister, when I heard I was named after you, I was a bit startled maybe? I thought if I would even exist if you were here... but as I think about it... it's as if I'm living life for you, & it's really an honor. I'm sorry if I am doing a terrible job at the moment. Hah, I think you could've done better. Hopefully all the bumps on the road will smooth out soon. Even tho I never met you both, just know I love you & miss you both so much. I can't wait to meet you both sooner or later in the afterlife someday.. if I get to where you both are that is since I'm sucha bad kid. I feel like you both are one of God's favorites since he took you both so soon; to do something greater. Hope you two are good up there in paradise.

♥ tamtam.

photo: day 11.

current mood: hmm....?
current song: minaaaj--ALL you bitches is my sons!

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A photo of what I ate today.


3/7/11 @ Sizzler's Restaurant.
First time at Sizzler's together with thee boothang to celebrate 8 Months deeep. ♥
Found it hecka whack how they made us pay beforehand... like a buffet or some shit, but feelin' the chill atmosphere tho. I ordered the 8 oz steak which is pretty good & babe ordered a half rack of ribs. Sorry it wasn't as good baby & how you could've been in sex ed learnin' about HIV/AIDs. ): SIGH* lol.

Bring it back ,

30 Day Photo Challenge

day 1. your facebook profile photo

day 2. a photo of yourself a year ago

day 3. a photo that makes you laugh

day 4. a photo of you as a baby

day 5. a photo of your bestfriend(s)

day 6. a photo of someone you love

day 7. a photo of something you enjoy doing

day 8. a photo of last summer

day 9. a photo that makes you happy

day 10. a photo of your family

day 11. a photo of what you ate today

day 12. a photo of your favorite band/musician

day 13. a photo of the last place you went on holiday

day 14. a photo of one of your favourite family members

day 15. a photo of your favorite film(s)

day 16. a photo of you at the last party you went to

day 17. a photo of you on a school trip

day 18. a photo of you standing up

day 19. a photo of your town

day 20. a photo of your favorite weekend

day 21. a photo of you and someone you love

day 22. a photo of the last thing you bought

day 23. a photo of your dream car

day 24. a photo of your humorous face expression

day 25. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in

day 26. a photo of the week's weather

day 27. a photo of a place you like to eat/drink

day 28. a photo of a night you loved

day 29. a photo of someone you find attractive

day 30. a photo of you when you were happy

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The 30 Day Letter Challenge
WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your best friend

Day 2 — Your crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

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STARTED WAAAY BACK IN SEPT! plannin' on finishing sooner or later.

Update#937924.

current mood: ehheh.
current song: WIZ KHALIFA. tha wizzz. wizzy. taylor gang or die niggas!

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1) I am a total fail in life. super gg til thee end of time.
2) My room is cold as ever.
3) My parents suck.
4) I hate Sheldon High School. fuck you. fuck you. & fuck you.
5) Happy 8 Months to the best thing in my life right now. i♥youbby.
6) I really hate you. Like seriously. Why did you ever come into my life? Fall off the Earth please... and bring that hideous thing with you. (:
7) I'm not actually am alone, I just always feel alone. -Drake
8) Stupid girls are so... goddamn.. stupid.
9) Wtf is friendship? Wtf is family?  Who can I trust? !#&$*@???
10) Har-dee-har-har. FML. Want to see one of my accomplishments recently tho... ?


http://dismysongz.tumblr.com/

Beautiful, ain't it? Too bad it mindfcked the shit outta me & babe, so much goddamn work. I wonder if takin' care of this... will help us learn how cater to our kiddies? haha. We'll seee. Get at this site tho if you lurkin' for some jams, we gotchu! (:<

Foreezys?

TUMBLY = other people's lives + a lil bit of yours.

BLOGGY = YOUR life.

interesting.

OHAI, babe. :D

yeah, he's up on that tumbly also.

but, what's a person supposed to dooo, when they're lovin' two?! 

when our blogs... have two different websiiiitesss?!

BUT, oh hay. we still cute tho.

Slappin' the bass mayn!

current mood: ilovePhiyeah.
current song: but i was gettin' pussy before i even knew i had powerr! >:)

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Once Phi is all ready, he jumps into his teggy,
that bang on his sides, makes alla 'em niggas wanna ride,
& you know... everybody in his city show him looove! ♥



cos his speakers be goin' HAMMER HAMMER HAMMER.



SPEAKERS GOIN' HAMMER?!



BLAMMER BLAMMER BLAMMER!


So damn early thou. Fckin' schooos, im sleepy af. -_-

I got some drama.

current mood: nootsuuure.

current song: jeremih - love don't change.

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Yeah, so I have some drama goin' on in my life. No, no. Not that kinda drama. Asian dramas, silly. (: But chyeah, babe & I just finished watching Devil Beside You... well for me, it's my 2nd time, but for Babe it's his first. I must say, it's very cute when he's just as into it as I am. Lol. Ah, I love that boy. ♥ It was pretty good thou. Yet, I have no idea what I've watched so far, so I am going to create a list to make sure... in case I ever get back into it again. 

Korean:

1st Shop of Coffee Prince [drama]

Goong [drama]
My Lovely Kim-Sam Soon [drama]

200 Pounds of Beauty [movie]

A Millionaire's 1st Love [movie]

100 Days with Mr. Arrogant [movie]

My Sassy Girl [movie]
My Girl & I [movie]

Taiwanese:

It Started With A Kiss [drama]

They Kiss Again [drama]

Devil Beside You [drama]

Why Why Love [drama]
The Outsiders [drama]

Smiling Pasta [drama]

Love Contract [drama]

Corner With Love [drama]

Summer x Summer [drama]

Hana Kimi [drama]

Tokyo Juliet [drama]

Love Or Bread [drama]

My Lucky Star [drama]

100% Senorita [drama]
The Prince Who Turns into a Frog [drama]

KO One [drama]
Silence [drama]
Mars [drama]

Meteor Garden [drama]

Meteor Garden 2 [drama]

The Rose [drama]

Japanese:

1 Litre of Tears [drama]

Hana Yori Dango [drama]

Hana Yori Dango 2 [drama]

Hanazakari no Kimtachi e [drama]

Pew pew, errbody goin' down.

current mood: vampire much?
current song: oh, you already know, my boy nipsey & the game.

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Pulll tha trigga, shoot that nigga, make sure that you get 'em....

WHY?!


cos bullet's ain't got no name, breeeehhh.


What's gooood thoo?
Well, so far. I'm slackin'. Ya girl can't get her ass up for stupidass schoolin' & her sleepin' schedule is all fcked up. She's still on that nocturnal stats. Party on, party on, all night nigga. -Drizzay Draaaake. Ya feeeel? But she gonna succeed tomorrow tho. Oh yes, you'll see. YEUP. Mhmmmm. Yeah. kaaay, alrighty then. throwin' upp thee deuces. tam's finaa try to catch some ZzzZz's. gotta wake up in 3 hours. >;/

pic(s).credit.to.babe.for.his.awesome.effects.on.his.

purple.blueish.indigo.lookin.vaio.sony.laptop.♥

Where you at?!

current mood: coldtiredishsh.
current song: t.i. ft. john legend - slide show.

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Damn where have I beeeen?! Let me tell you. (:< ahem* Yes, I am still usin' this. I have some drafts stored up on my laptop for this thang. Lol. I will get to postin' em soon once I get alla my shit together. But for now... I got an Usher confession to make, yo. So... I've been havin' an affair with my bloggy for my tumbly, since I can post like small shit and just random songs I'm feelin' at the moment. Like, shabam, you know what's the business right about now. I think ima decide to just use this for all my big shit, stories... or viewpoints & whatnot whenever I find the time to feel that... 'DING! Lightbulb* Guess what, ya'll?' Unfortunately, at this time thou, ya girl's just tryna focus on puttin' her life back on track. Yeah. I know, I'm horrible right? ): Selfishass tam. Sorry bloggy. I don't mean to neglect you. Just remember, I love you too still! <333

But chyeaaah,
http://daymntam.tumblr.com/ 
Ya'll can be cousins. (: