on the bright side.

current mood: blissful.
current song: drake - still got it.

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monday: 6.28.10.
usually, my starts of the week would be boring & there won't be anything eventful until the weekend. but nope, it was actually the opposite. i went back to Davis for the week since there was no point of me staying home since kickin' it doesn't come often cos i don't live near peoples anymore. ):
unfortunately, my sister's place was infested with fleas from cleaning a former inconsiderate bastards roomies room. so, i couldn't stay there. lucky lucky. bestiee let me crash at his place. thanks maa nigga. :) then, right when i woke up. i found out that my sister was going to san francisco to have lunch with a friend. immediately, i asked to tag along cos what are the chances are that i randomly get to visit the aye bay bay? not very often. & since phi was done with class, i asked if he can go also. it took awhile of back & forth convincing by text. but we goooots it.
rushing back to my sister's place, i was constantly glancing at the time since we have to get there before her friend does. however, traffic was a total bitch & the friend was already there by the time we exited the freeway towards her place. so i was like... fuck... i need my clean routine. i felt so ickyy. its whatevers. eventually, a quarter into the drive there, i got over it. cos, ima have to shower again anyways when i get back.
arriving there, i realized how different the weather is. it feels nice being welcomed by the cool breeze. but, i was anxious about how cold it would be at night, especially since i didn't have the appropriate clothing on. then, me and phi decided to depart my sister at the coffee shop so she can have quality friend bonding time while we go get lost in the citaaay. we walked everywhere. hobos are pretty fancy, huh. they have their own boxes and couches. & pedestrians are pretty angry. i've always wanted to live in a city before. there's too much going on in the environment, though. plus, i realized that things will get rather old. it's better to live far away from it. so, the chances that i do get to go, things are still new.
we went everywhere. our mission was finding the mall. it took like... days of walking around. cos we got lost for a bit when we were misleaded going to the path towards japan town. eventually, we made it. thank gosh, for all the maps that's scattered around everywhere in downtown. we went from store to store to find me a warmer fit. sucks, that even being in SF.. nothing really caught my eye. then, we went to westfield to look. i found this one dress. but it was a nono for my broke ass. then.. we went to macys which had their own building with like.. 5 floors? hecka ballin. i swore we walked every inch of the juniors sections hecka times. i found two outfits that caught my eye. shiz, was a nuh uhh too though. but phi insisted that i get it & he got my back. i refused. he got it anyways cos he's a butthole that didn't even wear it like he said. tsk tsk. ._.
once phi was done being a ballerrr. we went back to westfield to recheck this other dress i had my eye on cos everythings around the same price range anyways. then, get our grub on at the foodcourt afterwards cos we haven't ate all daaaay. crazy stuff.
it was on the third floor. & right when we were about make the turn to go towards the store. this gay guy offered us some juice. i was hoping to just take the juice and leave. BUT NO. he was a very persistent on advertising his skin care products to us. then, what got phi was that he started mentioning some NBA player. when every fuckin' thing was totally not related to that subject whatsoever. i was hoping that after he made us try his product, we would let us go. but this asshole... really took his time with us. by the time everything was done, the mall was already closed. & what else... is that he wouldn't let us leave until we brought his dumbass product. i refused hecka times. but this guy, something was wrong with him. "paper or plastic?!" FUCK YOU, bitchassss. you ruined our day. shiiiit. so we bought that stupid shit. ugh... gay guys are messed up these days. first, my sister's roomies, then this foo. wtfaaahz. what happened to the nice ones that compliment you all the time? somethings wrong... it must be the prop 8 thing. >;/
we left hecka hungry & everything in the food court was completely closed. so, we tried to think of eating choices, cos we're staaarving assss vietnamese kids. it was already night & super cold also. therefore, i was craving for something warm. we settled for a pho place. but, our last mission was to find it. we called up my sister on where it would be & took the bus towards it. once we reached there, every freakin' thing was closed. i blame that gay guy. >:( our day was pretty much fail. & our phones are pretty retarded. on & off all the time. so.. we just called my sister to pick us up and eat whatevers at home. however, since we're already in the bay, my sister suggested the "asian ghetto" in berkely cos she wants her pasta. i still wanted my pho. but it's all gooood. there will be other chances.
when we arrived there, we realized that we've walked past the area before but not noticing it as much before. me & phi saw that the "asian ghetto" was actually lookin' like a asian corner.. rectangle... or something. haha. after browsing around. this ramen place looked appealing to me since i've been wanting to try the actual ramen for awhile. so.. me and phi got that. while my sister went back to fufill her pasta needs. we got everything to-go since the places were almost closing. good timing for once! & ended the day by grub a dub dub - ing at homeee. & it was bomb. <3
overall... this day, didn't turn out to be that bad. sure, the things that were planned didn't work out but we can't overlook all the good with some bad occurances that came up. even though.. i didn't get to shower, we got lost for while, we walked for days, we didn't get to go where we planned to, we got hustled by a dickhead, didn't get to eat what we craved, purchase the things we had our eyes on, we were hecka cold... i can count all the bad things to add up for the positives. cos.. it is surely something that we can just look back on & laugh about. its one of those days that you can't forget & a memory to cherish. most importantly... its a lesson learned too. i'm never taking juice from a gay guy again. that's a death trap right there. foreals thoughh, no matter how gay they are. don't take theys juuiiiceee! unless you're like... hecka dehydrated.. then i guess you don't gotta choice. er.. just take it & run. >:) chyeaaah. i should've done that... fml. oh wells... next time... i got thissss.


I ♥ SF.

already taken.

geeeez. this song has been playing over and over again in my head today.
it's cute tho. :)
i can't wait to see step up 3. the third one looks a bit better than the other ones. i hope they don't use that same plot & add some more twists. the previous have been too unpredictable & the same shiiiiz all daaay.
SUPPORT TREY SONGZ, btw. he's one pretty man. ;)
& Phi Van Ho is his number one fan. oh yeeeah.

contagious.

current mood: tiredishh.
current song: dontae - love radio.

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i've been having restless nights lately. i don't know why it's so hard for me to sleep now. i barely catch a wink now. & random shiz has been invading my face. ); stupid ugly bugs. blah. hopefully it's all just temporary. cos i'm developing deeper bags. >;/

worth the wait.

current mood: awed.
current song: am kidd - electric heart.
"one thing that'll give me that spark. to power my electric heart."

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yesterday, was chillax. i woke up to multiple texts but i felt bad cos they texted me earlier & i didn't reply til hecka later. sorry, people. i love you though. :) then, phi called me up requesting if he and myles can go swimming in the pool that my sister's apartment has. they swam like pros. especially myles' buffass. made me jealous. cos i can't swim. ):
afterwards, they went to phi's place to shower & came back for eating plans. it was a long procress cos everyone's so indecisive & my sistaaa can't be trusted since she dips when it comes to eating. nuhh uhh. not this time. so, in the end, we settled for another costco dinner party. cos those are bomb and affordable especially for neeeeegaaaas. plus, i wanted... to buy ravioli there. deliciiiiouusss.
when the dinner partaaay was over. we called our friend vi up cos he wanted to watch Toy Story 3 cos his ass is so ballin'. finding out it was just the four of us watching, we decided to just get redbox. & vi selected "law abiding citizen." i kinda underestimated it on how it would be boring. but naww, it was pretty interesting. & makes you think between what's right or wrong. we had to find a place to watch it & vi told us we can at his friends peter's place. meeting him was cool. he was a really nice guy with some expertise cleaning skills.
what really got me though, is his long distance relationship with his girlfriend for almost 6 years. i was impressed on how well they were doing cos i know plenty of couples that have problems with just living in the same city & different neighborhoods. but... different continent? whoah, so mmmm'aaaazinng. & what else, is that they tried to break up to try a new route. however, it didn't work out as good. therefore, they got back together. he won't get to see her again until next summer. but he told me it's all good. cos with her, everything feels right.
it makes me wonder... about the way people find love. sometimes, we tend to go the wrong directions just to obtain that spark of happiness & do whatever in order to ease that loathsome feeling of loneliness. but is it worth it if that spark is easily blown out & you're hurting yourself in the process in order to keep it constant? happiness shouldn't be something that we have to work so hard for. it should already be a given to one another. i think... when we find someone meant for us, we should know that they make us happy. & it's not a thing to question cos the answer should already be oblivious. the feeling is always existent in their presence. there shouldn't be any shift towards the negative feelings & if there is, it's no hill that you can't get around. it's like... a breath of fresh air. so, don't be so quick to rush into what you THINK will make you happy. take your time... be patient until you know, that the feeling is for real. sure, the wait sucks. but don't let that bring you down. cos the world is a big place & we have our whole lives to find someone for us. & once we got it. in the end... we'll realize, it's all worth it.
i should know cos.... you, make me happy. ♥

love king.

The Dream - Love King 
(Deluxe Edition)
omgosh. 3rd studio release & might be the LAST. saaaay whaaat?! :( besta cop this JUNE 29th then. must haaave, since drizzaaay baby.

1. Love King

2. Make Up Bag (featuring T.I.)

3. F.I.L.A.

4. Sex Intelligent

5. Sex Intelligent (Remix)

6. Yamaha

7. Nikki (Part II)

8. Abyss

9. Panties To The Side

10. Turnt Out

11. February Love

12. Florida University

13. Veteran

14. Priceless

15. Take Care Of Me

16. All Black Everything

17. Sorry

upgrade ya.

current mood: sanguine.
current song: bruno mars - voices in my head.

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i'm at my sisters in Davis til whenever er so. as i looked at what clothes to wear today, i became so indecisive looking at the usual. i need some brand new shiiiz , foreals.




FITS;












OUWEE;






KICKS;

SUPRA PILOT "SEERSUCKER"


SUPRA SKYTOP FALL 2010 COLLECTION GREY SUEDE/NYLON


AIR JORDAN 1 (I) RETRO HIGH – GRAND PURPLE / WHITE


NIKE AIR SCANDAL MID


AIR JORDAN RETRO 1 - SHADOW GREY

daddy's day.

current mood: gratified.
current song: j cole - higher.

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HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! :)

go out to home depot, buy your daddy some tools. & tell him that you love him.

cos i love my daddy. he's a cool guy. he helped make tam too. 

143 ee 143 ee. i lalalove you daddy. thanks for everything. <3

free fallin'.

current song: trey songz ft. amerie - lets chill.

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"If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite me thinking that it is impossible."

what to do.

current mood: alterable.
current song: lil rob - summer nights.

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GrrrrLuuuuurrhh. it's really hot tonight. i might just shower again. ews. it's so hard for me to sleep in hot ass weather cos i get irritated. especially in the mornings when you wake up hecka icky. ;/ i really need to quicken my paste on my summer work tho... i'm hecka laggin'. why does it have to relate to american history. booooooring, yo. ): just gotta cram tomorrow.
i've been thinking alot about what i'm going to do in the future. whats going to happen. right now, i really want to start on my senior project during summer. there's so many things i want to do, i want to learn. i'm in need of a hobby. i want to dance again, really bad. but i'm tired of being around the typical crowd of cocky peoples. i just want to chill and do what i love. hopefully, i'll find something one day. so far.. i've considered to learn how to DJ, piano, & to major in tahitian dance. shit though... everything requires money waste. why aren't things freeeeee. anyways... i'm highly considering tahitian dance... even though i've tried it, i want it to be something i can just do & improve on. on the other hand... i miss pianooooooooo.
i'm indecisive... i can't decide. i keep on lookin' from left to right. something something. paradiseee.
asdjksafjsad;
oh wells, i'll figure it out sooooon, i hopeeeeeee.
but my bestaaay annie texted me earlier tonight. she sent me one of our old audio recordings. i was singing "end of time" in a hecka high pitched voice. LOL. made my day. i miss her though. can't wait to kickit and catch up! & katie tooo once she comes back from the vietnam. <3
oh yeahs brehbrehbrehhhh.

naps, ftw.

creepers.

current mood: agnostic.
current song: usher - stranger.

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last night, i was planning to pull an all-nighter to finish my summer homework for this online program that i signed up for in order to make-up credits since school needs to just... start later. >;/ but it was a fail since all the study guides took like an hour and a half to print out so i was pooped by the time i got home from my sister's which is 5. therefore... i just knocked out.
then, in the morning. i woke up at 7:30 AM, and i was like... oh shit.. ima be late since my mom drives hecka slow-mo. therefore, Phi comes to the rescue and takes me to scooos. thanks, man. :) when i arrived, i was actually EARLY and the teachers were late this time. wtfaayck. it's whatever tho. better safe than sorry. cos if i was late again. i get the boooot. ):
near the end of class, i called my mommy 15 mins before to pick me up cos she takes hecka years. she said, "okay, i have a dentist appointment though." & i can tell that she just woke up. then, after class, i receive a call from her asking me again, if i'm out yet, & how she's tired and is going to go back to sleep. it was hot. i don't wanna wait for her. so i decided to just walk from my school all the way to home instead. it was... pretty.... not... fun. i forgot my headphones so i heard everything. there's alot of creepers these days. i kept getting honked and waved at. i just brushed it off. but, theres this one guy that really got to me. he honked at me before; ignored it tho. as i was almost near home, he pulled up right next to the sidewalk where i was walking and told me about how he saw me previously on 2 roads, now i am on the current road. i was like... oh. & then he offered me a ride. but i refused, cos stranger danger = nuh uhhhh. & i kept walking and while the guy continued to drive beside me to reassure if i still needed a ride. i was like... naaah, i'm coool. then he's like alright. & made a U-turn and waved bye to me. i was like... fuck. scary ass movie shit. lol.
never trust strangers though people. no matter how friendly they look or act. it all can be just an ACT. cos... yeaaaah.. they can be child molesters er something. ewwwwwwuhh. >;/ no way jose. tam is not fallin' for that shiiiit, fasho.

P.S. DRAKE - THANK ME LATER IS IN STORES NOW! GO COP ONE WHILE YOU CAN. :) FUH FUH FRESH TRACKS. <3 yeeeeee`.

shuttuppp.

current mood: insouciant.
current song: chris brown - talk that shit.

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this is why... i don't like eating out with my parents. haha.

i don't like you.

you're a liar.
you're a cheater.
you're a phony.
why DID i see anything in you?
i'm glad that you're out of my life.
foreals though, breh....
FUCK YOU.
< / 3 

heard 'em say.

They say, the people in your life are like seasons.
& that everything that happens is for a reason.

- Kanye West.

livelovelaugh.

current mood: stimulated.
current song: eminem ft. rihanna - love the way you lie.

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food coma.

current mood: stuffed.
current song: trey songz - flatline.

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this weekend has been very dramatic. crying was on the regular bases. for everyone. nights were restless. mornings were exhausting. but no matter how tired everyone were... the realization of Uncle Ed gone... was just hard to sink in, so nothing else mattered. my deepest condolences again, Hidalgo family, for your loss. :( stay strong. & i hope the boys would step up to the plate to take care of the moms.
i enjoyed being in the company of the extended family. i have a new boyfriend named luigi. he's scared of ghosts. i think we broke up though. long distance thing isn't going to work. ); lol. it's okay though. i'm really going to miss you kiddos foreaals-- aliza, mika, mikeail.. other people. & the big kids-- aly, aldrich, aj, freddie... just everyone. you guys are awesome. it sucks that you all live so far... stockon, LA, canada? you guys are everywhere. but forsure, we're going to see eachother again! & you have nice parents... with hot flip mamas. they make me wanna say oh, oh, oh, oh, uh, uh, uh, oh, oh... ohhhh maaaa goooaawsh. ;) filipino moms FTW! <3 i'm happy that my friend kathleen deloso came through for one of the viewings too. we caught up on alot of stuff. i lalalove her. :) i also gave a speech to Uncle Ed. it was pretty... emotional for me, just looking back on everything. time goes way too fast. it feels like i was just talking to him yesterday. i'm really going to miss his intimidating personality... the way he would mug me from time to time. however, despite everything. he truly did have one of the most biggest of hearts. i like his spontaneous good moods & his laugh was so jolly. its a great loss. i don't believe he's gone though. it's the physical which is deceased. he's always going to be with us in our hearts. i guess this is just a constant reminder that life is too short. thats why we just gotta let go of all the negatives. we have to forgive, forget, & move on. don't hold any grudges. & just enjoy life. cos you never know when your time is up or our loved ones. we have to make sure to always keep them close to us also. don't take them for granted & just realize how much they're worth once you lose them. it's just another regret to look back on. life is about living without any regrets.
besides the grief... i really like their food. but i don't like how it makes me full quickly. i've been having a food coma for quite some time... and i still feel it. it's horrible. i hate being FULL. its like dying for me. thank gosh, i'm back home. back to my one meal a day. & simple food. ooh yeaah. geez, why is filipino foood sooo bomb. yeah, yeah, yeah. it's sooo bomb. especially SUMON. omgosh. i can eat that for days. & i like how they made it purple. c(: that ball thingy thing is good too. i dunno what it's called. i wish they had that coconut dessert that i liked tho. & HALO HALO. mmm, hell yeah. dang... i sound hecka fat... cos... i am... faaaaaaat. ._.


halo halo. <3

thank me later.

Drake – Thank Me Later

must HAVE! <3 in STORES, June 15th. :) 

1. Fireworks feat. Alicia Keys (Produced by Noah “40″ Shebib)

2. Karaoke (Produced by Francis and the Lights)

3. The Resistance (Produced by 40)

4. Over (Produced by Boi-1da & Al-Khaaliq)

5. Show Me A Good Time (Produced by Kanye West)

6. Up All Night feat. Nicki Minaj (Produced by Boi-1da)

7. Fancy feat. T.I. & Swizz Beatz (Produced by Swizz Beatz)

8. Shut It Down feat. The Dream (Produced by 40 & Omen)

9. Unforgettable feat. Young Jeezy (Produced by 40 & Boi-1da)

10. Light Up feat. Jay-Z (Produced by 40 & Tone Mason)

11. Miss Me feat. Lil Wayne (Produced by Boi-1da & 40)

12. Cece’s Interlude (Produced by 40)

13. Find Your Love (Produced by Kanye West)

14. Thank Me Now (Produced by Timbaland)

oh, hell naw.

current mood: miffed.
current song: t-pain ft. kanye west - therapy.

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fooooreals, broad .
it's not about what you HEARD, it's about what you KNOW. quit judging me cos you don't even know me like THAT at all. i never fuckin' judged you, or even did shit to you. all i ever did was be happy for you. so, get off my jock please. quit sayin' shit like you know me cos it ain't TRUE. we're fuckin' strangers for all i care. why the heck you gotta trip over dumbass shit. set your priorities straight, cos all that should matter is ya man. keep his ass in check. that's all you gots to do. & whatever it is, i'll be civil enough to respect you for it. if you got a problem though, TALK TO ME. i'm here to listen to your unnecessary opinions. but you ain't got no FACTS, hun. if its cos i'm his EX, and you're insecure about that. let me tell you. i REALLY moved on. i don't want his ass back. don't you think it'd be reasonable for me to not let him go in the first place? i did what i did. & the PAST is called the past for a god damn reason. get it straight. you haven't been in OUR past, or MY past. dang, you dunno this & you're older than me by how many years. be REASONABLE. quit bein' a little girl. shit.

deuuuuuuuces.

just keep it coool.

current mood: mellifluous.
current song: metro city ft. keyshia cole - superstar.

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vanilla twilight.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere


'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here.

- Owl City.

live & learn.

current song: t.i. ft. keri hilson - i got your back.

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"I've learned that in life, there will be changes we have to accept. Mistakes we need to learn from. Little things we gotta appreciate. Big dreams we have to chase. Past we have to forget. A future to look forward to. And people to love... I've learned that time is too little to be spent hating & wondering what if's.. I learned that from the people that come in to our life, we have to know who to remember, who to forget & who to cherish.. I now know that for better or for worse, it all happens for a reason. I know that during some point in our lives, we will face the worst. But I believe that it all gets much, much better at the end.. it always does. I'll forever have faith in people, in myself, in love & in life. I've heard that it all happens in a blink of an eye. So I'm keeping my eyes open, my heart singing.. until the music's over."

- Pauline Peralta