you ain't the only one.

current mood: retrospective.
current song: lupe fiasco - go to sleep.

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even the most seemingly perfect person can be eminently flawed. & these imperfections that each individual possesses are problems. everyone are accommodated by them. depending on how much tolerance is carried in your mental capacity will determine the way that you handle the conflicts.
some may choose to avoid the conflict unrighteously; resorting to alcohol or substance abuse which escalates into violent behaviors towards themselves & others. however, pthers may choose to be productive in their time; either working excessive amounts or obsessively engaging in favored hobbies. by doing so, they are desperately trying to cover up their problems . little did they know, by running away from it, the problem will always be apparent since it was never resolved in the first place.
individuals who are weak minded; avoidance can be accepted during certain situations. if the problem seems to be temporary. "if we don't mind these problems, they will go away." -tuiku. be patient; & wait until your mental stability increases, then you can go back to resorting problem. once you do, the conflict should be identified, & the next step is to let reality hit you towards accepting it. find the source of to as why you are feeling the way you feel. don't deny any emotions, even if they are painful, it's best to let them out even if it means shedding a few tears. allowing grief will be the one process closer towards healing. once fully recovered, the behavior should be more optimistic. keep in mind that no matter how cloudy the weather is, there is always a chance for a sunny day.

i know this, cos back in the day, believe it or not... i struggled in my life. i was confused on who i was & why some people are out in this world just to hurt others. & once i finally got hurt... it never really struck me on how much it of an impact it was until the last one was added on which was kinda like... the cherry on top of my issues. the certain people who caused me to feel this way were deceitful, rude, liars, or they just wasn't there for me or couldn't be there for me when i needed them the most. i couldn't trust anyone & although i have a full family... it felt like i was coming home to an empty house; the closest one i had was my brother, but unfortunately he was slowly changing & disappearing in my life.
i had no one by my side. & since i was young & naive... i resorted to the wrong methods to ease myself, sometimes i would sneak the alcohol from the cabinet for a few shots to do so. it helped, but it didn't make things any better for me. i was at a dead end where i didn't know how to get out of. this confusion led me to question life, like what reason is there for me to be here? i couldn't find any legitimate ones. sometimes, i would try to get away from it temporarily by sleeping, sometimes i wish i can just sleep forever. & i really did... i thought about ending my life. however, i didn't do it... i was afraid & plus i wanted to wait on time to tell me where my life should go next. definitely, waiting turned out for the best; i finally found the missing pieces to my life, realizing that all the negatives aren't worth losing all the positives in your life. once you have reached the bottom of it all, you have no where to go but up.

now it got me thinking... how certain people over exaggerate on how bad they have it in their lives over the most irreasonable situations when obviously there are others in the world who have it worst. i hate how they act like they are the only people in the world who go through such things such as getting out of a relationship with your supposed "one & only." & what's more ridiculous is that they want to threaten their lives over it. alrighty... just cos whatever didn't work out like you wanted it to, doesn't mean it's the end of the damn world.  it's stupid & a selfish thing to say especially if you gotta family, friends that are there for you, a roof over your heads, clothes to wear, food to eat... then life should be good, if not satisfactory. not many people in the world can be as fortunate to have that. so, the next time you're trippin & making a big deal out of stupid shit. just know, that in this world, there's always going to be someone who's having it worse than you are.