hopefully manageable.

seriously, i need to STFU. i am me, always have, always will be. just a little lost right now, but i'll slowly find my damn way, & i'll pull through. my life sucks ass, but it's fckin' hard for everyone. why should i let bullshit pull me down now when i've gone so far without it. don't give a fck if my family ain't never there. they never have been anyways. who cares about fakeass friends who'll turn their backs on you. the people in the past shouldn't even matter over the people who still stayed in your present & promised within future. school is school, it's alot of work, but i'll graduate if i just push a little harder. what if i have problems with myself? i'm not that talented. i don't think i'm the prettiest. i'm not all that smart either. no one's perfect, but i can try my best. every single mistake in the past, i can make it up by doing better in the future. yeah. i'm struggling financially. so what? economy sucks. but i'll manage to scrape up a job someday. it shouldn't stop me from doing what i love or long to do. i will fckin' continue to dance, i can relearn piano, & i'm still mothafckin' singing even tho i think i suck. i know i can be the best girlfriend he's ever had. better believe, i can do whatever the fck i want to & i will if i build some faith in myself. i needa get my shit together, & stop feeling bad for myself. be happy, live life, & hold my head up like my nose is bleedin'. i ain't finna cry no more. whats there to fckin' mope about?! you can't have a high without a low & shit... its about time for me to get my ass high. foreals. fuck you tam. have some motivation, will you? geeez.