letter: day 11.

A deceased person you wish you could talk to.

Dear Son Pham/Tam Pham,

Hey there big bro, hey there big sis.  One of the things that I regret living in this world is not to be given the opportunity to know you guys personally, or even the chance to meet you. Dying at such a young age, or in other cases not even the chance to experience a day living life at all is really unfortunate. If I could've given one of you guys my life you already know I would... Maybe the family would've been more together of one of you guys were here... but nope, we're so broken, so far apart. I remember An, always wished to have a brother, and when I hear that I would think of you, Son. I think he would've turned out for the best if he had a figure to look up to. It was really hard for him living under a roof of two sisters who he couldn't relate to. I wished I treated him better also. Seeing how he is now, dropped out of high school before barely starting, anger problems, always isolated from everyone. Ah... I just don't know. Oh Sister, when I heard I was named after you, I was a bit startled maybe? I thought if I would even exist if you were here... but as I think about it... it's as if I'm living life for you, & it's really an honor. I'm sorry if I am doing a terrible job at the moment. Hah, I think you could've done better. Hopefully all the bumps on the road will smooth out soon. Even tho I never met you both, just know I love you & miss you both so much. I can't wait to meet you both sooner or later in the afterlife someday.. if I get to where you both are that is since I'm sucha bad kid. I feel like you both are one of God's favorites since he took you both so soon; to do something greater. Hope you two are good up there in paradise.

♥ tamtam.