farewell ,

current mood: optimistic.
current song: jackie boyz - you deserve better.

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dear YOU,

i hate the way you are. i hate how you're never going to admit your mistakes and lying to everyone in their face, especially mines. you need to just be a fucking man and open your god damn eyes and see what the hell you did wrong, instead of twisting everything around and making me seem like i'm the bad person who's supposedly crazy and making up stories, when you even told me yourself. YOU know what the hell you did wrong. you screwed me over once again with all your extra bullshit. telling me that you want me in your future. promising me this and that, then the next thing you know you break it AGAIN. i honestly feel like a total moron for believing that someone like you can change. not only that, but forcing myself to not be convinced by other people's opinions about you... which turned out to be true. i offered you my friendship and lately you haven't seem to be reciprocating. this really shows how much you considered my feelings, which you never really had. it's always been about you. you're selfish. i'm tired of getting hurt by you all the time and when it happens, all i can get is a "sorry." an apology isn't going to always cut it, especially in these current circumstances. i did a lot for you, and you know tried my best to make you happy even though i know i'm not happy with certain things all the time; it never mattered because i loved you. you would say the same, but your actions speak louder than your words; and honestly, with actions alone, it shows me that you never really loved me at all. you're self-centered and all that matters in life is you and what makes you happy. it's fine though. i finally now know your true colors. you really need to reflect on your mistakes, because its been how long?! still no improvement at all. i've wasted my time but it is what it is. however, with all the bad times; i won't forget the good times in the past. i will always care about you and have a spot for you somewhere in my heart. i hope you have a good life and succeed with whatever in the future. thank you for once being an important part of my life.

yours truly,
<3