letter: day 2.

my crush.

dear philip phi,

lollicup, was it? i swear, hecka stood out to me that day. you was one cuuute nigga. i was feeelin' that swag you was rockin' witcha. too bad i was tied down already. we both were. on the reals tho, when we first met, i thought you was just going to be one of those guys that i'd kickit for one day & completely disappear from my life once it was was over. little did i know, you called me up the next night & wanted to kickit but i couldn't cos i was already busy doin' somes already with my best. wrong timing, tsk tsk. sorry, i didn't process your name until hecka times of repeating. i'm deaf. ): once we finally got to chill, you became more appealing to me since ontop of that physical attraction, you had such a great sense of humor. make my tummy do "haha's" all day. but, i didn't really feeeel it until you came through on my 16th birthday & did the sweetest gesture that anyone's ever done for me. however, it ended after a few weeks when i made the decision to give my runned down relationship another shot. after that, we got distant since you was mad at me for makin' a bad choice with some whackass nigga that's a sad excuse of a man for pullin' sucha low blow. & i understand, im stupid. a couple of months passed, things wasn't workin out which resulted to the official end of my relationship around november & you got out of yours too, which is a weeeird coincidence. we finally started talkin' again & took our connection into a deeper level as friends... BEST friends. around april on our 1 year of knowin' eachother. i realized that i was feelin' you all over again. but i decided to just keep it to myself & wait for it to fade out since it was obvious thatonegirl was still crazy hooked on you. & i ain't like that to go all out for a man that ain't even mines. then again... i hated witnessing how such a sweet guy like you constantly being misjudged & stressin' over nones. you deserved nothing but the best. so, slappin' on some t.swizzle one day, this line got me saaayin, can't you see that i'm the one who understands you? been here all along, so why can't you see, you belong with me, baby. & now that you're mine, i won't ever take you for granted, i promise.

♥