the stupid things.

current mood: crappy.

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there i slip again. i'm sorry. why are you still with me?
i don't know why i did it. i guess i'm so used to how i do it at the parties with that environment i went to back then, & how you witnessed me at some before... didn't really seem to bother you as much. so, i thought you'd have the same reaction as always, just whatever. but it's all a different story now since we're not just friends & we're not keeping our status a secret. & how you understood the concept of how i mess around, that girls are girls, as long as it's no guys. that's all i thought about. when i'm in that state i stop caring about whoever thinks & just do dumb shit cos i think that nobody will remember. i didn't pay attention to others around me so didn't know that they did what they did. my carelessness when consuming alcohol is at fault for this. i'm an inconsiderate bitch & i should've thought about how you felt before doing anything. i crossed the line. now, i know. i'm sorry, i keep making you mad, frustrated, irritated. i'm a bad girlfriend. & you deserve better.