a happy ending.

current mood: dilberate.
current song: gwen stefani - cool.

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"I think when you are young, you are hoping that this person will be the right one, the one you are going to be in love with forever, but sometimes you want that so much you create something that isn’t really there."
- Johnny Depp

there has been a point in our lives where we live with the struggle of not-knowing. being unsure of our present, and the anxiety of what's the outcome of our future. by avoiding this solicitude state, we tend to dwell within the past, reminiscing on all the good times, & the anticipated future that was created within that long, or short period of time with that significant other. there has been an expectation on time, & as it slowly progresses, the deeper the imprint of that person within our hearts & the more vulnerable that we become... falling in love. finally reaching head over heels. we hope for all of the best things that may come, entrusting ourselves that this love, will be the conquerer to every conflict. however, what happens when the conflict(s) becomes too frequent? everything slowly begins to fall apart, the love gradually deteriorates, & when it is, we put ourselves in that reminiscent state... tightening our grips to all the history that was made with one another. once, the love has clearly been faded, abnegation develops on how everything can possibly come to an end. so, we put our best foot forward trying to make things work by lying to ourselves, fabricating our emotions to the past & neglecting the present ones. eventually, the conflict(s) arises again to the point where it cannot be fixed & it brings us to the realization... that no matter how hard we try to stabilize the relationship, everything is bound to fall apart sooner or later. therefore, the last option, the only option that we thought would never dream of choosing is apparent... letting go.
i was in this place once.. i held onto the memories. i had the the trouble of overcoming the fear of moving on. even though, i knew i deserve better. i worked hard for the relationship to progress forward, sacrificing my pride for that slight state of happiness. eventually, the conflict(s) became too overwhelming and it hit me that this love... was completely gone. i wasn't achieving any source of happiness. just pain. why was i fighting for nothing? it was exhausting to realize that i was running into several streets that lead me nowhere but dead ends. & the only choice that i neglected for so long became clear to me, it was to just let it go.
nothing is perfect. it can't be helped when a love is at its downfall. we always have keep in mind that the world is in a constant change as long as the time continues to trickle away. nothing ever stays the same no matter how much we would like it to. as seasons change, so do people. within time, they either come together or grow apart. if it was fated to be, then love will find a way to make it work. don't create artificial emotions for the sake of the history that was created. the past is the past. & whatever happens, happens for a reason. stay positive. always have your head held high, & hope that possibly every bitter ending could be leading us towards a brighter beginning with someone truly meant for us.